for my most well repected teacher

....... guys, today i did a very stupid thing...... because i was afraid of gettin scoldin........ i skip Mrs choo class.......... not thinkin of the consequence.......... not thinkin if I done it right.......... not thinkin of 'HER' feelin..........I am sorry Mrs choo....... although i know this is all to late, sry that I did that out of my own selfishness to you.I don think I have the courage or the right to ever face u again...... I betray the trust u given to me again and again!!! without appreciatin how much trust, how much love,sweat,blood and faith U've given me!!! until now it was all to late!!! I did not think of ur feelin as I act!!! how the could hell did I turn to be so selfish!!! I hate myself!!! Like i said before U're a great teacher...... some really really great one...... cos U're one teacher who input alot of trust in ur student,U gave us freedom of choice,respect,care and many precious guidance that never one teacher I had gave me!!! I hate myself!!! because other than words of apologies........... I really don know what i can do to repent for my mistakes!!! I hope U are here to witness this,I do not dare to ask for ur forgival!!! I do not have the courage to up hold my words and promises to u!!! but I do wan to tell the world somethin.... I do wan to tell the school something.... and i do wan to tell my friends somethin...... that no matter wat u do,no matter how much U scold.... no matter how much anger vent on me in my heart,in my mind,in my blog,in my life U're still the "BEST BEST TEACHER I EVER HAD! AND I EVER WISH TO HAD" all i wan now is to say thank you teacher.And for my friends who still uphold her trust! pls do not misuse it! treat it as somethin more unquie,more beautiful and more expensive then a dragon horn!!!

I never mean to hurt u
the way I know I have.
Your trust means more to me
than anything and I'll do whatever it takes

Since the day I met you and
your words touched my heart
U shower me trust,care,concern and respect
I knew that my life would never be the same

Please forgive me for the my stupidity act.
I'll make it up to you every chance I get
I'll respect u.... understand u....
You have my words and my respect forever and ever.

I AM SORRY!!!

...... words from the bottom of my hearts.......

...number pattern...

I never expected my love life gossip would be quite popular among my friends,but.... as uncertainty level rose.... guesses were made...... and rumor soon spread .Hence this shows both a positive and a negative sign,positve in the sense of their care and concern level for me,neagtive in the sense that they confuse the crowd with different opinion of wat they think I like!!! hiax!!! sad lehx.... but similarly I am happy also... so should i say thank you or oie! wat u think U are doin!Btw for those interested pls relax!!! chuan tao jiao tou zi ran zhi!!! when the boat touches the port it naturally become straight!! Ur will know the ans eventually!!. so i think i should say thanx for ur concern and ur patience? haha!!! I hate extra lesson organise by our school the principal dam kiao ** leh!! ppl school onli 2 days!! my school is lyk so many days!! hiax!!! ENDURIN SUCESS!!! GIANT SLAYIN MENTALITY!!! HIGH ACHIEVER!!! LEFT RIGHT BRAIN!!! they brought no change to my life T.T hiax!!!!!!

A thousand of word,
A hundred of term,
A million of phrase,
A billion of noun,
To describe my feelin for u.

A thousand kind of ways,
A million time of attemptin,
A trillion amount of hrs spent,
A billion ways of approach,
I still can't hold u tight.

A million of ways used,
A hundred of methods applied,
A trillion time of tryin,
An infinite amount of pills consumed,
I still can't stop thinkin of u at nite.

I don nid ani returns from u,
I don wan any lies for comfortin,
I don expect ani placin in ur heart,
I don wish for ur love,
all I wan........is
U to show some appreciation.....
say thank you.......
and never delete me from ur sight.....

*I cant promised to be the most handsome one,
I cant promised to be the richest one,
But.........
I can promise.......
I love YOU more than anyone!!!!

declaration

Birthday......

hiax!!! my my..... why all the people in the world come and wish me happy brithday when it isn't my birthday =.=! anyway I felt that they have the heart to remember and wish me a good year wish i am very grateful about.... I must say that i am shock by the over-whelmin 'wishin and blessin' i received from all my friends. aniway thank you guys... ur're great.... erm! I should rephrase it as ur're extradinary great,love u all! today is the first 'o' lvl paper....(nvm I got $$ for second try)T.T. my birthday is on 27 of june hope ur don forget^^! and all the best for ur papers!

* may call ur out on june to celebrate my birthday... so if pls leave a date u're free on,on the chat box!!! ty.


I'm so sad and depressed
all I want to do is to rest
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can't fight

I think of you lying in that bed
And wonder if there is anything I could have said
I wish you were still here
But I know that you are nowhere near

I love you more than you ever would know
I just wish you didn't have to go
I just want one more day with you
to let me pour my thoughts into you

I miss you more and more each day
There is so much more I had to say
but as i began to look away
another me long to stay......

I do not care
whether you are black or white
if you have loud or soft
cos i love you the way you are

i intend to continue that way
that direction,that route
that path & that road
to LOVE you from the deep of my heart....


......cos this is me & this is how i made up......

food fair

I heard from the news that there was a truck carryin full of medical supply that drove into the shop to sell it off in CHINA,si-chuan province. Shock and disgusted was the only words i can use to describe my thoughts and feelin then........ how could somne one do such inhuman act when the whole village is dyin how could him........ I questioned myself if this wat Confucian's teachin are made up of.......but i realise these are not becos those already lost their mind to profit and cash.
I went to food fair with lionel, jermaine, eric and lucas on friday this week, one word to describe my trip 'fresh'. Here are some photo taken hope ur enjoy it.

china death toll increasin

wah! a few more days to Vesak day!! the birth of the enlighten one..... my god la!!!but china death toll was still expectin to increase leh!!! i really feel sad for the victim of the earthquake.I thought of it and understand how difficult are this people who r askin to for a chance to survive and how easily people gave up their life to the death god,what is this people who are struggling for every means and way to survive and people who are askin for god to end their life, don they know if their life ends here they will not end anithin but start the sufferin of their love ones,i had a old friend who told me that teacher and the exam results are givin him/her too much stress and might want to considered the unholy way.He/she expect me to give him some concern and words of advise never to expect that i will call him/her and shout at him/her.LOL!!!!!! when did i become a weirdo hiax!!!

people say,there is no such things as eternal love.....
U made me understand that although there isn't eternal love there is eternal memory,
Families told me that love can't filled one's stomach....
but u made me understand that love can fills one's thoughts,
Friends say that love is an emotionless ghost that haunt those in it.....
but u made it clear that it is more of and angel that embrace those in it,
Teachers say that love is a waste of youth and time....
u made me appreciate love more than my youth and time,
Goverment say,love is way far for us....
U made me realise what importance isn't our age but our time spend together

it was u and onli u who made it clear that i do have a life to continue....


...................pls spare the victim god...............

for those who visit my blog pls pray for the victim...... thanx!!!!

dream

Today i had a dream, not quite a bad one but neither something good....... lol wat the hell am i talking about. okay! the dream goes lyk this... i was all alone by myself in a small corner and all my friends left me!!!! I was really scare so I cried and shouted for help because the feelin of friendless and helpless is just veri unbearable.So i cried I cried ,and i cried until i woke myself up with tears all around my face poor thing right.... lata on tonite i will be goin to sing karaoke!! wonder if it will be fun^^ but i hope so!!!

if there is a nid to wait,
I will wait.....
if there is a demand to love,
I will love......
but if there for us nid to hate,
U can never find me to hate
cause I will never hate u,
no matter wat u do or how u do......
my heart will always be there......
cause i am made for u........
and onli for YOU.........


.......................... i hate dreamin...........................

survey results

arrrrrrrrrgghhhhh!!!!!! i cannot take it anymore!!!! my Chinese teacher dam ****** keep on suan me!T.T is it past life time i offended her or is it this life i offended her to make her hate me so much."wah! 56 ar!" wth lyk i cannot get 56 lyk that. y she every time lyk that de!!! china so many people die....(sob) sometimes i really feel uncertain about god's intention!Y does he or she wans to create humans and destroys his or her's own word forcefully... inhumanly! I am prayin for the ease of the departure souls from the world and also for the safety of all my love ones, if anything should happen to them i would feel worst and i wan to be the last one to feel it especially ' that one' cos if anything is to happen to u i will be the one to suffer..... so take care of urself.

The below shows the survey results:
HOW MANY % OF MY WORDS CAN BE TRUSTED
- chiou torng 55% - weiren 80%
- kunlong 50% - jaiver 85%
- huiyee 80% - ying siew 1%
- jovey 0% - clarence 80%
- wei jie 80% - xuan wei 80%
- kovit 85% - eric 80%



HOW MUCH DO U WAN TO BE MY FRIENDS RATE FROM 1-5
- chiou torng 3.5 - weiren 4
- kunlong 4 - jaiver 5
- hui yee 4 - ying siew 4
- jovey 0 - clarence 5
- wie jie 5 - xuan wei 4.5
- kovit 5 - eric 5
- lionel 5 - zhi yun 5


big thanks to those who join in the survey........

A walk that seem 10 miles away,
A mouth that seems to stone all days,
A jar filled with hope and care,
A heart felt with love and concern,
A childish thinkin that this is impossible,
A pain i felt when i lost u...
A step i move closer to you!
A love runnin far away!
A step i move nearer to u!
Another story fadin away!
A slight movement to touch you
my happiness smilin away!
.........
A love meant for you and only you
make me feel lyk u are my everyday!

My Grades

Hi guys! I writing this cos ur kept askin for my results. Erm! by the way I oso know of some friends who did not do that well either, rather then discouraging or actually makin use of this as and opportunity to laugh at those who u dislike,I think that we or u should show some care & concern for them cause u might not know but ur every move means a lot of different for them. My results until now are still so-so,but with a high possibility of failin english and a 100% possibility of failin my physic.From wad i heard from others senior and school teachers, mid year paper are normally harder, cause teachers wans the student to actually buck up for their studies and be fully prepared for the comin 'o's exam so if u did not do as well, pls do not get too depressed over it, but if u done well gratz u for that and keep it up cause slackin away will bring u no where.And if u did not get as good as expected learnt from ur mistakes and carry on strivin, I trusted all my friends in gettin good results and i know ur can do it cause, althought i have foolish or lazy friends who did not score but i strongly believe if they put in their hundred % they may be the next most sucessful businessmen we see on tv,or even the most popular doctor in singapore.Cause i belive all of them have a dream and that is what drives them to unrealistic limits or even force them to go beyond it.All the way, my friends,my laughter and my joy.... my dear puppeteers.


remember: knowing what u want show ur destination
but........
doing what u want shows ur road to ur destination.


To all of my friends and those who think
they are a friend of mine.

Some one asked me today what exactly are angels to me,those with a Florence lamp on top of their heads? those who have white wings behind? or those young babies flyin all around the skies? after some thoughts and deep thinking, i finally got a solution to the answer.



My life is filled with 3 angels,
Each of them got different technique to keep me goin,
One is my keenest listener,
Another is my best encourager,
last one is my best adviser,
All of them shown me directions,care and concern,
They are always out there to be on the front line,
This wingless angels,
blessed me,protected me and guided me,
Through my darkest hours in life,
Hence it make wat i am today... frens forevea



thanks for wat u 3 did, ur are great, my life wouldn't be better without anyone of u.thanx alot.

I am a creation of my family & friends,
with all part of my body attached to strings,
when he held the right string up,I frowned
when she pulls the left string around,I cried,
when he shaked those strings about,I danced,
when she release the top 3 strings,I smiled,
but as they played with me,I felt warmth,
but when they ignored me,I felt thorns,
they gave me life,emotion & happiness,actin as a lubricant tokeep my heart poundin,
they showered me with care,concern & love,
providing me with the courage and energy to go on,
if I were to be asked my most important in life,
I'll not be my live,career or finance...
As compared to those,
It will be my dear puppet masters.


My new blog hope u guys enjoyed it.

*the result of the survey u guys did will be out in a few days time.ty guys
( feel free for any comment.thanx)