I used to belive it is a prank! until i felt a sudden urge of jealousy!

Girl! U know U sux!U really really sux! U wun leave me alone! u haunt me in both my reality world and my dream world! I don know Y! but i felt that i am trapped in ur prison unable to get out until recently! i decided to set myself free! Seriously! i don know Y i loved U! U don have looks that i lyk? no voice that i ask for? no character that i looked for? U're totally not my type!
BUT~ when i look at u smilin away~ i felt that nth more was more important then makin u happy! I felt that i muz make u smile forever this way! i felt that i am supposed to let u be happy forever this way! YEA! some call me insane,some tell me crush, and some tells me to giv it and let it go! but when u smiled~ everythin good or bad melts inside my heart!
just the nite before! I dreamt about U! U are very happy! wif alot of guys around u! i felt that I can finally let U go because U had found happiness! but when i was walkin away from u! i heard ur tears drippin and U sat on the cold hard floor and cried! My heart shattered as if I was hit by a million needles! I quickly turn back and wanted to rush to U! but my legs were rooted to the ground! I shouted out for U but U just kept cryin and cryin away! i heard my heart tearin apart! my mind roamin, lookin for a solution to end ur pain! I felt the sudden gush of wind which chill down to the very end of my backbone! I felt that I had done somethin so wrong! I ..fe.l..t.......lyk dyin~ but u just sat there and kept cryin!
I woke up! to find that my pillow was wet! I cried~ I nvr cried since i was in primary 2! and but now I did! I was so worry that any mishap will happen to U! i am so afraid that I cant see u anymore~ I am so scare that if somethin really happen to u....... wat should I do? I quickly changed my pillow case and get a refreshin shower. I sat down in front of the fan to air my hair dry and out of nothing, I started prayin for ur happiness, prayin for ur safety!
I look up at my koo-koo- clock! it was 6! I am so scared that i didnt dare to sleep animore! For the first time i am frighten~ to lose something i lyk so much forever! and that is U! my girl!


-jz