emotionally unstable

Lol! sry la! yingsiew... sry that i didnt wait for ur turn for the dramatec audition! but seriously! really!! seriously!!! I think even if u acted.... base on wat I know U will not make it! cos their actin is too good le! me too will not make it! cos i am actors that will shine onli in confusion state. haha! so don be a xiaoqi gui and be so happy over that! In fact be gald that jem is willin to go there and wait for u! oh yea! Btw! don balme everyshit on me! cos i did nth wrong. they don wan to wait is their problem, don make a big fuss wif me!for godness sake! Im not even inside the goddam conflict between the two of you la! and hor! not that i wan to make a big fuss out of it la! IT's just that don u think it is very funny? U got released earlier as compared to wat u told me the nite before and u actually came to a conclusion that ur early dismissal was my fault! lol! u dam cute lor! Still can say " then whose fault? teacher's fault? my fault? of cos ur FAULT la!" that instance i stoned....
BTW! I hate rumours la!kao! scare the shit out of me! yea! i know miss.w here is a good girl! just that she is exactly i duplicate copy of me! lousy luck in love~ but whoever the idiot that started this shit rumour should keep quiet and stop it le lor! cos even thou miss.w is a easy go lucky kind of person but if ur all continue to do that, U not onli dmg her reputation of bein wif a SWINE lyk me u will also not knowinly hurt her in her heart! this kind of inhuries are hard to recover la! as in from my point of view la! worst to the worst... later talk talk talk~ not happy here not happy there~ then take out all this shit to fite! so the best solution to prevent all that from happenin is u or whoever to stop it lor!U know it is for her good! for ur good and of cos for me to have a trouble free nite(bein selfish here) cos I have not gotten over her yet u know? but soon~ I will. I will soon be free again!
Swine flu! wth! all becareful leh! heard can kill de leh! pork must eat put don come in contac wif raw meat la! better be safe then sorry right! BTW! CKT is super hard la! digital fundermental also! kao! gate here! gate there! inverse gate? Or gate? kao! all looks the same to me! siao liao la! i mus chiong studies liao! don chiong will die! WA! rainin now! I love rainin days! but also hate it too! cos whenever it rains! my heart felt so light i felt lyk im flyin! the smell of the rapid evaporation from the first few droplets of the rain! the dark clouds reddish sky! wat else is more beatiful then that! take a few sip of the hot coffee.... wa! feel those warm liquid gently flowin down ur throat.... wa! suddenly felt so energise.BUT i hate those heavy rain out there cos i can see a image of u inside those heavy pourn water droplets! i did promise u that i will do somethin every rainin day~ but wasnt given the chance to! haha! aniway! wish u the best of luck! and yea! Ilovetherain


Mr A: Look in the sky...
Miss A:?
Mr A: count the number of star there is~
Miss A:y?
Mr A: just do it( wif a smile)
Miss A:1234...5..8..15...19..23
Mr A:23?
Miss A: yea.do U wan to tell me that each star stand for the love u have for me?
Mr A:NO.
Miss A: then?
Mr A:Have U ever wonder wat makes the stars glowin bright?
Miss A: the dark plain sky?
Mr A: yea! and that dark sky is wat everyone sees....
Miss A: wat about the stars?
Mr A: the star is wat ur parents sees in you!
Miss A:Oh! so wat about U?
Mr A: I see nth!!!
Miss A: so that is wat im to u( turn her head and walk off)
Mr A:(shakin his head) I havent finish my sentence... tsk... I see nth BUT you...

taken from one of shakesphere greatest work
-jeremy wee

Wohohoho! Im so dam super hyper today~ don ask me y! cos Im lyk that! No don think i take ecstasy! i didnt! Im a ecstasy myself! haha! i love pooh! i love pooh! i love my GOD DAM pooh! yea! world peace! CER roz! frens roZ! parents roz! neighbour roz! she roz! wohohoho....! super hyper ar!!!!!!!!
alright! some update on my life! yea!yea! don nid laugh! i got some god dam indian who is used to speakin INDIA-english to teach me ckt! wa! ur answer correct he shake his head! ur answer wrong he oso shake his head! but mai siao siao leh! ppl dr. grade leh! i heard, ppl in india squeeze cow milk in the money then chiong their studies at nite leh! super hardworkin la! it is onli they don have the same enviroment as us or else i think singapore sure got alot of top positon giv this kind of blackie take! mai siao siao hor! don go disturb those throw rubbish or cut grass de bangla... who know maybe they got a degree grade and Im still strugglin wif my diploma... they are smart and super hard workin guys, it is just that they are not givin the chance! hiaz! i so lucky.... aniway! back to the topic! the indian really dam funny la! he is teachin me ckt but i keep on think that he is sellin me roti prata then keep on askin me "roti prata kosong or wif eggs?" omg! laughin throu the lesson althought he nvr makes jokes la! his look lyk indian bunni sia! dam hao siao! the best thing is his slang! kao! he ask me understand? i still tot he ask me y i sms? ..... -.-
ok! as all of u know my comm teacher is a blonde! anione don know my eng standard? if u don i tell u! CMI!!!!!!! wow! imagine sittin inside a class wif one of the most spoken languages but don understand quite a number of wat she said! wth! her vocab is lyk so chim la! keep on use phrase! best thing is speak lyk a machine gun! i wan ask her slow down but scare ps! i ask me fren.... but my fren tell me simple eng don understand meh! WA! where got simple sia! she speaks lyk a dictionary la! dam hard to understand la! at least speak a little DJ wat la! kao! speak lyk u nvr heard hurt singlish before! singapore leh..... Passin that crappy subject anot will determines alot if i understand wat she is sayin! Im supposed to ask alot of question! but half of my question are not answered cos i don know wat the hell she is tryin to portray la! zeng hu ar! y in poly also got eng de!
U dam crazy! really dam crazy! if u wan me to be onli frens wif u, can u talk in a more correct way! kao! Im forcin myself into not belivin wat Im seein.... serious! that was too off la! y not just say it lyk a normal conversation! y wan to Add in some sensitive things... then later i wrong idea! u scold me! kao! talk properly la! but yea! u are very very very very fun to sms! super duper fun la! lol! relaxin to sms u! haha! misses u! hope u are doin well! and yes! use ur heart to see! not ur mind! not ur dream! and of cos not ur eyes! btw! Im driftin away! hahahaha! wun turn back lyk wat some smart alec did! maybe maybe~ i will! but until now still no thots of it yet!!!! wei! no matter wat happen! Im still ur fren! TC of urself wor! maybe that is all i can tell u from wat i am now! no matter wat! BE happy! oh yeah!!!!!!
I love pooh! i love pooh! i love pooh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat make me so happy?
dota?
pooh?
sleep?
shoppin?
family?
or you?
no matter wat! Im happy! yea! happy! super crazy today!

new chapter of my life~

sittin down by the beach this evenin! tot throu alot of things~ happy moment! and sad times! gentle gush of the wind kisses my face~ starin at those large cruiser floatin their way across the sea. somehow I felt as if time had stopped. Popped some M&M into my mouth, those sweet meltin candies reminds me of her! yea! those great moment of fantasyI had wif her! haha~ but she is gone for now! looked across the wide wide sea.... lights! those light looks so beautiful, calmin my tense feelin as if tellin me nth else will bother me animore! as if all my hopes will come to reality~ as if u are lyin right beside me... haha! that feels great! the sun yawned and the sky slowly darken, the wind grew stronger... soon enuff the plain plain sky is coated wif red! rainin? i tot. Memories of how we try so hard to be together, those efforts we put in! those time we spend! those tirin yet fun time we had... maybe Im not good enuff for u! or maybe U are not good enuff for me! or maybe there isnt maybe at all!I felt out of breath and decides to relax my mind. i took a quick glance around me. there was nth except an uncle bringin his young girl for a walk by the beach.... those sweet smile and cute looks of her reminds me of ur laughter! i MISSED it! and i can nvr forget it no matter wat happen! TMR is the day where i will have to forget everythin and enter the next chapter of my life~ a chapter without U ! a chapter where eveythin will be new! a chapter where all the definition of sweet dream will change! A chapter where i can be myself again! I think lettin things go is one hardest things to bein a grown up! i really don feel lyk growin up! i don know if i can move on... but.............there is no more but!

Took a look at my watch! 830pm! stood up.walk away from the beach. turn my head and said wat a good nite spent! TP! CER! Im chiongin to U! ^^ heavy bag! hiaz!

2 days after the orientation. TWO words to describe my feelin... SIANZ and even more sian.... althought the mass dance was super duper fun! but the icebreaker just sucks, imagine sittin down in a class room playin that kind of game and doin forfeit for one whole day.... wa! will die man! don ask me y! but my class onli got 4 girls leh! kao! cant even make it to let me enjoy a different view every day la! but the guys are fun! got quite a number of shuai ge! mei nuii.... sadly don have!~ mentor is shuai!!! some mentors are chio!!! dam cute la! onli if i have their looks and shape... -.- lets hope that everythin will be fun! engines roxz!!!! *.*


Somethin cannt be forgotten but somethin must be! for me~ i chose to let u fly? maybe that is all u wan!!! and i am not sad or emo about it! pls don say Im. ty

Is that wat u call friendship?

PLS stop doin this guys! it is not that Im sidin him or watever but it is way to ASS! for ur all to treat him lyk that. He may be wrong... very wrong, but no matter wat he is still some guys i truly look up to~ at least he isnt that kind of guy that would gossip at ur back talk rot about U and thinkin that everythin is untold to the victim.... He protects friends~ try to be close to them~ try to create bonds between them~ althought he may have attitude problem but at least... at the very very least, he put in the very effort to try and I think that is veri admirable. He may be a big idiot who don know how to talk and choose the words he use, but if U really sit down and think, all those things that he said are quite true to some of us~ it's just that we guys dosent wan those critism to come out from his mouth. (unholy aura) i must say but pls! we must try to giv him a chance to get near to us or nothin will ever change and without changes, no one is gonna get happier then the other if this kind of things continues...

Are u guys really so happy that someone ur race, ur type, ur classmate is bein push to the corner and left out all alone? wat if u are in his shoes? wat will u do? can u handle that kind of stress or dislike everyone is givin him? are u sure u can pretend that nothin had happen and continue to move on lyk normal? can u really stay in a group of frens knowin that alot dislike him? Is this wat we are suppose to giv him? Is he given a chance to change? Can he really be so hateful that we must treat him lyk that? well ask urself about it... but one things that is for sure! he really feel sucky inside and i got that kind of feelin when one of my past best friend left me.... it really hurts and sucks!

Does jumpin down and die solve everythin? are u sure u are dead without regrets? pls don tell me that u wan to die or wat! yea! ppl may treat u that way, ppl may not lyk ur presence, ppl may not lyk u at all! but have u ever think of it. Y the hell will they think of that? y the hell would they ever do that? where does the problem lies on? have u ever really thought of those things and see wat u can do to make things better? do u really wan to know where ur problem lies? do u really wan to change it? yea! did those thing ever come across ur mind? and btw! friendship is not as easy as i playin xbox, it is impossible to get everyone to lyk u or agree to u! but all u really nid is that one or two "true" friends that will never leave u behind no matter wat will happen to them.... that is wat i call friendship! rather then havin a large number of friends where i cannt turst ani of them at all! i rather have one who can understand how i feel and will always be there when needed. YEA! i do know for myself who are my "true" friends and who are wolfs and foxes behind a sheep clothin! Im not a dumbass that doesnt know wat is goin on... I know who hates me and are puttin a mask in front of me! i know who bad mouth me! i know who badstab me! but wat is the point even if i point them out and cut all ties wif them? wat i nid is guys that will really stand by my side and be wif me no matter how shit the situation maybe! i think u should do that do! maybe that is the best thing u should try to do!

To me Friendship is not about comin together and makin as much friends as possible because of common topics and games! but friendship is a really indepth learnin of a person's personality and the willingness level of u to offer ur help if ever the person needs it! it is not about the number of friends u had make because of anithin u had in common but the amount of "sister or brother" u had made because of the way u treat them and the way they treat u! tapped within ur heart to find the friends who really care about u! and yet try to change the way others think about u by showin changes! only then will u be likeable~ as disney-winne the pooh. changes speaks the loudest! no point beon gloomy! be happy most importantly!


*Ps! if i mentioned anithin that will make ani of u unhappy. i apologise if i did mentioned anithing unfavorable. plus all these postin are my own views! u may not have to agree wif me. but pls no matter wat giv those who are wrong a second chance! that will really help them alots...
don ask me y i post this shit! cos i got nth to post obivously! haha! nites!

-by jz =D

movin on!

Everythin will and had come to an end! there is no point in tryin so hard to saviour it or change it... I've come to a situation where tears don change a thing and all of the tryin are pointless also meaninless in my point of view. No matter how hard i called out for ur name, how hard i wan u by my side, how hard i wan to hold u or how hard i cried things just don get better for me.

I don have regrets, i don have tears, i don have the abilitly to make u mine.... but i have sweet memories that will forever stay wif me until the very last of my breath.I once heard of this sayin, don complain if u don get it, but be contended cos u once had it, very true indeed. Those smile that u gave me, those warmth gentle looks, those laughter that u cried out when u are wif me, those fun we had when we are in our own world, I will never ever forget it.

When i know u chose to be free, don wan to be tied down to me anymore, iFelt despair not knowin wat else i can do becos everythin seems too late... I love u more then money,want u more then ani desires and wishes to be wif u more then anyone u know~i don wanna stop u becos when i think about it... i just want u to be happy.thats all.

I knew this day will come sooner or later... someday, sometime, someway... U are goin to do that to me! i lyk u! i really lyk u alot~ so do moved on! do watever u wan, keep runnin and don look back if that is all u wan. blesses from the angels, love from the god and wishin from me will make u strong.... no matter wat u become, pls rmb that i love u from the bottom of my heart. movin on even it means that hit me the hardest....

i have no regrets,
no tears
no feelin of despair,
but~
happiness, laughter and love
becos that is wat u really wan...
BE free. be wateva u wan.
however u wan.
most importantly be happy~ dearest ...........

seriously! i don quite get wat some girls and woman are thinkin! U help them also hate u! U help them also sack U! U help them also scold U! just wat the heck are these opposite sex thinkin~ Im helpon u to find wat u lost and brood about~ i try so hard just because i wan to see U bein happy, see u smile once again without worry! let u be the happiest person on earth..... even thou all that might be just for a split second! i tried all my might~ squeeze all my brain juice and almost all my resources to exchange for ur happiness.... instead of a thanks or anithin~ U told me I HATE U! and don talk to me~ so wat is so wrong for doin that? i didnt hurt him! didnt hurt u! just wanted to help u recover ur lost feelin.... This few days, when i msg u and u stop returnin my msg! i was greatly sadden and lost! just wat is it that I've done that u must hate me so much? I totally don know wat is there so much to be angry about!!! I don know wat else to say..... dam disappointed!

that mad woman out there! WTH! funfair ar! u nid us that treat us good! don nid us then send us home! when i think about u i dam angry! angry until wan to pian u! tell us wat cut course! then go hired two ppl to sub us! U think we so dumb until cannt do plus and minus ar? u really think we so dumb let u scam until we don know~ kao! u really sucks! really really sucks! U lyk that treat ur collegues! Im not lyin~ one day u will get all this back~ wan to sack then giv proper reason la! say wat cut cost! so fake! so ass! so chicken ass! U are a nig evil ass! just wat the hell are u thinkin! shit ur thinkin! shit ur actions! shit ur plannin! u suck to the core of the earth! NB!

help u house work u scold! don help u house work u also scold! wateva i do u will scold! dam pek chek~ ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Y all of u make me so stress! wakao! really tired and sad, speechless wif some of u! hiax! do u know ur words are more influencial then teacher? then parents? then god? but Y are u always the one who will make me upset not them? Y is it that makin someone happy seem so hard even it means throwin in almost everythin? Y is it U will still get shit thing after U threw in everythin? Y is it when u make and effort she still scold? PUZZLED and confuse! ._____. moody! hiaz