A veri big thanks to Unknown for nominatin me to be the person who giv ''bring laughters to others!'' is lyk WoW~ didnt expect that la! they wan me to write up a wadeva report sia! was lyk really interested to participate in it! so i did some sketchin and plannin but all halted at a half complete my report when SOMEONE(S) came into my mind.
I didnt make everyone who is close to me happi! I did failed for two ppl~one is A guy! AH-shi-lan~, i used to called him! yea! did apologise for my misdoin! but didnt worked! and yes! even till now, we still didnt tok to each other! is lyk cold war to the extreme la! but the reason for our conflict is onli lyk ...... peanuts sia! Dam saddenin one la! another one is a girl! allowin me to onli call her CUTE~ is the promise she made to me! and yea~ similar to Ah-Shi-Lan, we are in veri good relation wif each other until some peanuts thing broke out and yea~ apologisin didnt work leddin to now! totally don talk! avoidin here and there! Wan to show concern to her/him must also go underground~ so that in the end my blessin and wishes did reach them but by other ppls. is veri veri heart sankin one la!
So sry miss.unknown! I don think i have the right to be qualified for this award, competitions! aftrall~i failed to make ppl i treasure alot! almost to the brim of treatin them as if we were bornt form the same parents! smile. but rather then that i bought them tears and anger! therefore i don think i deserve that kind of award! I rather have them back beside me then some awards lyk that~ althought the prizes dam interestin la!~haha! but yea! i really really hope that one day they will go back to normal and poof! by my side they will come! then i will really meet my goal!I will treat them extra well and never ever let them go again!never never lettin them go animore! MY PROMISE.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
how can i be happy when we are seperating?
hmmm.. heard from some of my fren that u aint quite happy recently ha! hmmm.. must be wonderin y i sort of lyk dao-ed u on ur birthday bah! to speak the truth! I didnt really dao-ed u! it is just that i don know how to face u, so was slowin down my pace and thinkin of wad should i do or how should i act.
Have u ever ponder and think back in time? have u ever think of how we treat each other in the past? maybe u didnt, but i did. we were dam cold to each others, it is as thou we pratically didnt talk after that incident remember? haha~ u left quite a deep impression in me! cos u are the first girl whom got me so angry! unfortunately.. recently got one more girl overtake u liao la! lol~
I cant pull myself to believe that u are so close by my side, it is like a dream! i agree, we spent alot of happy times together! we share quite alot of sad moments together.. that is y we unknowinly built a bond inter-linkin our heart to one another.I really felt peaceful, in bliss whenever im wif u. u may not know, but i felt ur concern, ur warmth~ overwhelmin the sadness which i am suppose to feel after those incidents. U reduce my pain and sufferin by a leap.
After ur b'd is over! my promised to u is done! poly will start follow by JC! that day is like a day where i will lost touch of someone who is carin and protectin me! i nid to be back on my feets again, and u too~ it(ur b'd) is more of an event of seperation rather then celebration.. how can i be happy that day? how can i smile to u and pretend that nth is happenin? how am i goin to be happy when we are speratin? do u know how unwillin i am? haha~ wakin up from my dream! remember our goals uh! jiayou!
Have u ever ponder and think back in time? have u ever think of how we treat each other in the past? maybe u didnt, but i did. we were dam cold to each others, it is as thou we pratically didnt talk after that incident remember? haha~ u left quite a deep impression in me! cos u are the first girl whom got me so angry! unfortunately.. recently got one more girl overtake u liao la! lol~
I cant pull myself to believe that u are so close by my side, it is like a dream! i agree, we spent alot of happy times together! we share quite alot of sad moments together.. that is y we unknowinly built a bond inter-linkin our heart to one another.I really felt peaceful, in bliss whenever im wif u. u may not know, but i felt ur concern, ur warmth~ overwhelmin the sadness which i am suppose to feel after those incidents. U reduce my pain and sufferin by a leap.
After ur b'd is over! my promised to u is done! poly will start follow by JC! that day is like a day where i will lost touch of someone who is carin and protectin me! i nid to be back on my feets again, and u too~ it(ur b'd) is more of an event of seperation rather then celebration.. how can i be happy that day? how can i smile to u and pretend that nth is happenin? how am i goin to be happy when we are speratin? do u know how unwillin i am? haha~ wakin up from my dream! remember our goals uh! jiayou!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
be strong javier
Hmm how long since i last posted anithin? aniway~ nice to meet u guys! and thanks for all the encouragement buddies! frens! laopos! really thanks for bein my cushion when im in the darkest hour. hmm~ i didnt know my blog got quite a number of silent stalker who don use my tag box! but really, thanks for those concerns all my dear silent stalkers -.- ( don know how to use a even nicer term)
hmm.. wat is love? is it just that sudden rush of adrenaline when u see that particular someone? or is it that constant reminders and efforts u put in tryin to tell urself it's over but yet u know ur heart still cant agree to it! is it that simple sms of affection or is it hating yet knowin that u cant hate. Millions have been broke, hurt, conned becos of this words! yet many still believe in this fantasy that one day her/ his mr/mrs right will come into his/her world lyk a fairy and everythin will go like the way fairytales always ended, happily ever after. But seriously speakin, how many of us did really see ani couples who nvr had a single conflict before? therefore conflict is inevitable.
In my own opinion,What make a friendship or rather a relationship long and strong is the way they handle these conflict... there are many way in solvin this conflict but how different the ways are, they always come out wif one party apologisin and the other party forgivin! In most cases nth is too big or bad until they cannt be savage ani more! Ego and sturbborness are normally the more common factors which which will led the rather easy to solve problems into some kind of crisis which will result in hurtin the both party, often deeply!
In my personal point of view! wantin an angel to just pop into ur life and then live happily ever after is almost impossible! if U wan ppl to lyk u! to take note of u! to show u care and concern! first u must start off with urself! relationship and friendship is unlike studies, there shouldnt be ani goals in mind, but is the feel that really matters! U will not always reap wat u sow! sometiomes u will get a unexpected windfall yet sometimes all ur crops may die! but it is how u stand up and prepare for the next batch of crops! U wan ppl to respect u! start by respectin ppl! u wan ppl to love u start by lovin them! U wan ppl take note of u! start by takin note of them! and start with this word TRUST. Try feedin a dog meats instead of bones, try givin the cat fish instead of junks. Things will change for the better.
If u ever had a girl in mind! which make u cry! which make u angry! which make u sulk! which make u high! which make u smile! and no matter how hard u are tryin u cannt forget her... which still hurts when u see things that are once so close to her! that still itch ur heart when somethin is happenin to her! that still wan to make u pretend that U nvr met her before.. don force urself to forget her! but rmb her! don force ur mind to erase her, don pressurize ur heart to delete her but tell ur soul that a part of her still remains in u! and she will wan the best for u and move on..
-u can lie to ur heart,ur soul, ur mind bout the person loved! but once u see that person ur expression will reveal the truth which u had been hidin!
jiayou javier~
hmm.. wat is love? is it just that sudden rush of adrenaline when u see that particular someone? or is it that constant reminders and efforts u put in tryin to tell urself it's over but yet u know ur heart still cant agree to it! is it that simple sms of affection or is it hating yet knowin that u cant hate. Millions have been broke, hurt, conned becos of this words! yet many still believe in this fantasy that one day her/ his mr/mrs right will come into his/her world lyk a fairy and everythin will go like the way fairytales always ended, happily ever after. But seriously speakin, how many of us did really see ani couples who nvr had a single conflict before? therefore conflict is inevitable.
In my own opinion,What make a friendship or rather a relationship long and strong is the way they handle these conflict... there are many way in solvin this conflict but how different the ways are, they always come out wif one party apologisin and the other party forgivin! In most cases nth is too big or bad until they cannt be savage ani more! Ego and sturbborness are normally the more common factors which which will led the rather easy to solve problems into some kind of crisis which will result in hurtin the both party, often deeply!
In my personal point of view! wantin an angel to just pop into ur life and then live happily ever after is almost impossible! if U wan ppl to lyk u! to take note of u! to show u care and concern! first u must start off with urself! relationship and friendship is unlike studies, there shouldnt be ani goals in mind, but is the feel that really matters! U will not always reap wat u sow! sometiomes u will get a unexpected windfall yet sometimes all ur crops may die! but it is how u stand up and prepare for the next batch of crops! U wan ppl to respect u! start by respectin ppl! u wan ppl to love u start by lovin them! U wan ppl take note of u! start by takin note of them! and start with this word TRUST. Try feedin a dog meats instead of bones, try givin the cat fish instead of junks. Things will change for the better.
If u ever had a girl in mind! which make u cry! which make u angry! which make u sulk! which make u high! which make u smile! and no matter how hard u are tryin u cannt forget her... which still hurts when u see things that are once so close to her! that still itch ur heart when somethin is happenin to her! that still wan to make u pretend that U nvr met her before.. don force urself to forget her! but rmb her! don force ur mind to erase her, don pressurize ur heart to delete her but tell ur soul that a part of her still remains in u! and she will wan the best for u and move on..
-u can lie to ur heart,ur soul, ur mind bout the person loved! but once u see that person ur expression will reveal the truth which u had been hidin!
jiayou javier~
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