how can i be happy when we are seperating?

hmmm.. heard from some of my fren that u aint quite happy recently ha! hmmm.. must be wonderin y i sort of lyk dao-ed u on ur birthday bah! to speak the truth! I didnt really dao-ed u! it is just that i don know how to face u, so was slowin down my pace and thinkin of wad should i do or how should i act.

Have u ever ponder and think back in time? have u ever think of how we treat each other in the past? maybe u didnt, but i did. we were dam cold to each others, it is as thou we pratically didnt talk after that incident remember? haha~ u left quite a deep impression in me! cos u are the first girl whom got me so angry! unfortunately.. recently got one more girl overtake u liao la! lol~

I cant pull myself to believe that u are so close by my side, it is like a dream! i agree, we spent alot of happy times together! we share quite alot of sad moments together.. that is y we unknowinly built a bond inter-linkin our heart to one another.I really felt peaceful, in bliss whenever im wif u. u may not know, but i felt ur concern, ur warmth~ overwhelmin the sadness which i am suppose to feel after those incidents. U reduce my pain and sufferin by a leap.

After ur b'd is over! my promised to u is done! poly will start follow by JC! that day is like a day where i will lost touch of someone who is carin and protectin me! i nid to be back on my feets again, and u too~ it(ur b'd) is more of an event of seperation rather then celebration.. how can i be happy that day? how can i smile to u and pretend that nth is happenin? how am i goin to be happy when we are speratin? do u know how unwillin i am? haha~ wakin up from my dream! remember our goals uh! jiayou!