I must work harder! to my goals, my dreams, my mission, and you.

It quite a long time since i posted something here, on blogger. Recently i was given the job of a Ursher at Kpop night. After the entire event, I felt that i have wasted 18 years of my life doing nothing, go crazy over nothing and getting all that heat up for nothing.

All my 18 years of life, I have been worrying if ever "my loved one" will be happy! was worrying if she will go away with someone! doing all the jobs to make me look that i am actually on a leveol they can rely on, but actually i am nothing! totally nothing. Looking at all those korean pop band. They were merely 30 and they actually make a name out for themselves. They are that young when they already make a name out for themselves and what about me? I am 18 goin 19 and i couldnt even save the first 1k in my saving account! that y once again i questioned myself, how much have i grown? how much am i to the goal of being a good father? how much happiness can i bring to that girl who is with me? the answer is..

I don even dare to think!!!

I want to make a different, but now the question is how? how can i make a different? Do i study hard? work hard? or rather make efforts in little thing i am doing? I am lost. But defintely i know i mustnt stick to the path i am walking now! cos it isnt the path for me! I must work harder! to my goals, my dreams, my mission, and you.