Winy....I wan U to know that I am feelin very bad for wat i said! and is really very bad! I don wan to see you feelin upset neither do i wan you to cry! It's is just that I am really very very confuse now as to wat i can do or wat i mus do! I hate hurtin U! I swore before that i will not make any girl cry becos of me! U are a really a very good fren! U are someone i did look forward too~ U are good in almost all kind of aspect! really~ U are fun,cute,friendly,nice,interestin and alot more which i cannt express throu my words! I don hate U! in my heart U are already ACCEPTED long ago! I do miss you! I do think of you or have the urge to talk to you sometimes! I do hope that one day U and I can sit down at a corner talkin our way throu the busy city life! I do hope that I can pick up the courage to giv U love,happiness and a never meltin smile that will last throu out ur entire life! But!but! no! i am afraid that I may not do it well.... I am afraid that I cannt giv such a wonderful girl wat she suppose to have... I am so afraid that if i carry on this~ I may end up givin u sorrow and tears which will wet ur pillows throu out the nite.
I don wan such a innocent! such a pure girl to be hurt by me! I don wan to hurt U! I don wan to giv U a love, a life wif no gurantees... I wan U to be happy! I wan to feel ur happiness and laugh together by ur side~ but i don wan to feel ur anger and sulk when i am wif u! YEA! U can say I don have guts! U can say that i onli have one and a half balls! But I really don wan to giv u a bad memory that will last U throu out ur life! I felt that i am not good enuff for U! I felt that i had not known u enuff! I felt that we may not last till eternity..... and when all those thoughts floods my mind! I felt so strongly that u will not find happiness with me! I felt my heart achin and sourin away! I felt ......... I don know how to say!
When JJ told me that u love me! there was two kinds of feelin rumpagin my entire body! first is happiness~ and second a heavy sense of worriness! meybe I am thinkin too much! maybe wo zhi zuo duo qinq! but i am really so happy that U have accepted me! that i couldnt sleep well yst nite! but~ i also felt worried! I felt that i might not make it to what u wanted!(I just wishes to hold U so much but.... don have the courage too!) .... I apologise for actin stupid just now and prentendin that i didnt know! Becos other then that! i don know how else I can make u feel better~ I don know how to make you feel happy when things comes to this! Maybe I nid more time to know U! maybe we are rushin into things.... or maybe.... I don know if i can make it to whole ur hands! When u say i am cute~ I was so happy! i wish that i could stay pampered by ur side lyk a small child followin his mother!I wish that I had enuff time to know more about U... I wan the good impression that we hav for each others to blossom into love! BUT unitl now i am afraid I cannt make it! Can u pls give me a little more time to know u better???
*FOR ALL THAT I HAVE DONE WHICH HURT WENDY QUEK XIAO JIE! I apologise! may u pls forgive me?
Mother nature created me with 5 qualities..
TO love,to hate, to feel to think and to give
She also unknowingly place in 5 emotions..
Smiles,confuse,hurt,pain and sourness
to make it more prefect she place in some values..
Cheap,friendly,BAD,helpful,passionate
Hence she completes me and si so called the artist of nature..
But she was very unwillingly to set up mechanism in me...
so she told me 3 words and tell me that~
there will be someone who can help me paint my face everyday!
I was left all alone searchin for that her~ waitin for her~
but until now i still found none!
those 3 words are i love you! =(
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