fan fan fan...

Seriously! I feel dam sick and tired today~ really! i almost fought wif one of my best fren! and ya.. i almost fought wif her! seriously! Till now~ i don know if wat im doin correct! Did i really help the wrong side? im so not sure! i don know! yea! im confused! so confused and frustrated until i don feel lyk gamin or wateva! i don know~ i don wan! but i did! hiax~
I think~ sry is all i can say to those which i had hurt! I don know! zhen de hen fan!
Am i dumb or wat? I must be! why did i do? i actually hurt all my dearest ones? sry thye whye~ sry sry! i may sound a little too harsh today! Im deeply sry for wat i did! I shouldnt have said those nasty words! im a big idiot! i should have put myself in ur shoes and see how u will feel! i should have try to understand u more! i should have try to make things better from u! I should have played my part as a fren~ I should have stick by ur side throu this time! i failed! i failed! im a freakin failure! im sry~
I don dare to think too far... i don dare to question if we had that feelin for each others? i wonder if u think that way too! I always lyk u~ without ani doubts! u shld be able to know that! I really don know if wat u are feelin is jealousy or the fear of losin... but! no matter wat! i will be by ur side! lyk i always promise! ur happiness is my choice, it has been and always will be! Im such a big fat loser becos other then sayin that im sry! i don know wat i can say animore! i wan u to be happy! be it by my side or not by my side! i wan u to be the happiest girl on earth! lyk i promised! but~ but~ i didnt make all of that come true! recently, there is just too much thing s for me to stress on! my exam! my frens! my life!... there is just so much thing to stress on such that i cant giv u the squeeze out moe time for you! i really wan to tok wif u! i really wan to tell u somethin sweet~ i really wan u to be the happiest girl on earth! but somehow! things had been goin way out of control! things are so unpredicted! unrefine! unexpected! Wat shld i do? wat shld i think? how shld i act to make u feel better? Im just a shit hole in a hit hole in a shit hole! im just a big bad sucker~ i don know! i don really don know!
I have exchange for two of my most important thing~ to help u! pls cherish it! pls pls!


hiax! i hen fan!