hello guys! yep! i know i just posted somethin today mornin! yep! i know this is just wastin ur time! so pls for those who don feel lyk seein stuff which will make ur body-hair stand, move ur cursor to the top right-hand corner! see the X button? yep! u are right! click it! wad? ask u weather to close tabs anot? eh! press yes! ya! gone right? magical right! lol! ya! i know! im just bein lame! yea! but other then bein lame~ i don know wat else i can do! yea! i really don know wat else i want to do!
U made me so so so confused and vexed up over these things! so much so~ that i cant sleep well at nite! so much so that i cant stop thinkin of wat u are doin every now and then but still worried that my SMSes will make u frustrated and irritated! so much so that i still pick up my phone now and then hopin to see ur name appear right infront of me! I don wanna give u extra stress lyk wat my fren done to ur best frens! i don wan to give u stress and force u to make decision base on impulses or stress.. I want to give u the previlage of havin all the time to ur own! i wan u to be happy! i wan u to smile lyk a nut! i wan u to be everythin~ every every beautiful i seen in my life! Im sorry! i have been under lots and lots of stress recently! exams! frens! family!... i wanted to squeeze out more time! maybe just that extra 5 mins for me to pick up the phone to see how u are doin! but i just lack the courage and time to do so! SRY~ for everythin that got to do wif not callin u! Im puzzled! seriously puzzled by ur actions! I no longer can tell if ur actions is a act of courteousy or have other meanins to it! i force myself not to think too much! i ask advice from my frens! but still... i came to conclude that it was the act of jealousy! the conclusion got me happy for quite a few days! before ur words hit me head on and put me to exile again! there was this time! when u suddenly have a total change in behavior to me. THAT feelin is unbearable! it is lyk takin away all the sweetness in an instance and flooded me up wif toxic! it is suffocatin me! it is killin me bits by bits!it just hurts to the core and leave me awake throu out the nite! are u really happy doin that? is this really wat u wan? i don know! im not sure! im confused!!!
Do u still rmb this poem? i don eat in the mornin becos i miss u..
i don eat in the afternoon becos i miss u..
i don eat in the nite becos i miss u..
i don sleep at nite becos im hungry.. still rmb this poem u sent me? i couldnt sleep that nite! i couldnt imagine that u would actually send me this kind of things! i was so so so excited and happy that nite! u told me it was cute! and yea! really it was! but i just cant stop myself into thinkin u are actually hintin me... and when those thoughts flows down each and every veins in my body! i felt the sudden sure in courage, happiness and HOPE. im a loser! maybe u did that out of courtesy maybe u mean somethin more then it! maybe u find that it is a good piece u must share wif ur frens! maybe u wanted me to see it! maybe u wanted me to forward it! or maybe... i don know! sometimes when i feel vexed up or have a small conflict wif my frens or family! ur smile will force away all my feelin and make me smile radiantly again! sometimes! i just wish to spend that little more time wif u! i value all those train ride wif u by my side! i treasure all those time i spent together wif u! i rmb and will nvr forget each and every single words i used in a phone conversation wif u! i hate to see ur tears! i hate to see u feelin sad! cos each and every of that expression breaks my hearts! i promise u wif happiness! and i will accomplish my promise even if im not the one by ur side! as long as u smile at then end of the day! I hope to e the reason u smile for, the reason u drops ur tears for.. and the reason u get angry for! becos im nvr goin to make u feel that drop a single tears or get angry~ i don know how! but i will do it! i think! i feel! i promised!
to evoke a feelin takes time..
to stir a sense takes seconds..
to miss u takes mins..
to think of u takes hours..
to be love u takes week..
to be wif u takes months..
to be together for a lifetime takes years..
to make u bring u happiness and laughter takes my lifetime..
Ur happiness is my choice! it has been and will always be... Even if im not the one by ur side everynite!
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