miss.unknown

A veri big thanks to Unknown for nominatin me to be the person who giv ''bring laughters to others!'' is lyk WoW~ didnt expect that la! they wan me to write up a wadeva report sia! was lyk really interested to participate in it! so i did some sketchin and plannin but all halted at a half complete my report when SOMEONE(S) came into my mind.

I didnt make everyone who is close to me happi! I did failed for two ppl~one is A guy! AH-shi-lan~, i used to called him! yea! did apologise for my misdoin! but didnt worked! and yes! even till now, we still didnt tok to each other! is lyk cold war to the extreme la! but the reason for our conflict is onli lyk ...... peanuts sia! Dam saddenin one la! another one is a girl! allowin me to onli call her CUTE~ is the promise she made to me! and yea~ similar to Ah-Shi-Lan, we are in veri good relation wif each other until some peanuts thing broke out and yea~ apologisin didnt work leddin to now! totally don talk! avoidin here and there! Wan to show concern to her/him must also go underground~ so that in the end my blessin and wishes did reach them but by other ppls. is veri veri heart sankin one la!

So sry miss.unknown! I don think i have the right to be qualified for this award, competitions! aftrall~i failed to make ppl i treasure alot! almost to the brim of treatin them as if we were bornt form the same parents! smile. but rather then that i bought them tears and anger! therefore i don think i deserve that kind of award! I rather have them back beside me then some awards lyk that~ althought the prizes dam interestin la!~haha! but yea! i really really hope that one day they will go back to normal and poof! by my side they will come! then i will really meet my goal!I will treat them extra well and never ever let them go again!never never lettin them go animore! MY PROMISE.

how can i be happy when we are seperating?

hmmm.. heard from some of my fren that u aint quite happy recently ha! hmmm.. must be wonderin y i sort of lyk dao-ed u on ur birthday bah! to speak the truth! I didnt really dao-ed u! it is just that i don know how to face u, so was slowin down my pace and thinkin of wad should i do or how should i act.

Have u ever ponder and think back in time? have u ever think of how we treat each other in the past? maybe u didnt, but i did. we were dam cold to each others, it is as thou we pratically didnt talk after that incident remember? haha~ u left quite a deep impression in me! cos u are the first girl whom got me so angry! unfortunately.. recently got one more girl overtake u liao la! lol~

I cant pull myself to believe that u are so close by my side, it is like a dream! i agree, we spent alot of happy times together! we share quite alot of sad moments together.. that is y we unknowinly built a bond inter-linkin our heart to one another.I really felt peaceful, in bliss whenever im wif u. u may not know, but i felt ur concern, ur warmth~ overwhelmin the sadness which i am suppose to feel after those incidents. U reduce my pain and sufferin by a leap.

After ur b'd is over! my promised to u is done! poly will start follow by JC! that day is like a day where i will lost touch of someone who is carin and protectin me! i nid to be back on my feets again, and u too~ it(ur b'd) is more of an event of seperation rather then celebration.. how can i be happy that day? how can i smile to u and pretend that nth is happenin? how am i goin to be happy when we are speratin? do u know how unwillin i am? haha~ wakin up from my dream! remember our goals uh! jiayou!

be strong javier

Hmm how long since i last posted anithin? aniway~ nice to meet u guys! and thanks for all the encouragement buddies! frens! laopos! really thanks for bein my cushion when im in the darkest hour. hmm~ i didnt know my blog got quite a number of silent stalker who don use my tag box! but really, thanks for those concerns all my dear silent stalkers -.- ( don know how to use a even nicer term)

hmm.. wat is love? is it just that sudden rush of adrenaline when u see that particular someone? or is it that constant reminders and efforts u put in tryin to tell urself it's over but yet u know ur heart still cant agree to it! is it that simple sms of affection or is it hating yet knowin that u cant hate. Millions have been broke, hurt, conned becos of this words! yet many still believe in this fantasy that one day her/ his mr/mrs right will come into his/her world lyk a fairy and everythin will go like the way fairytales always ended, happily ever after. But seriously speakin, how many of us did really see ani couples who nvr had a single conflict before? therefore conflict is inevitable.

In my own opinion,What make a friendship or rather a relationship long and strong is the way they handle these conflict... there are many way in solvin this conflict but how different the ways are, they always come out wif one party apologisin and the other party forgivin! In most cases nth is too big or bad until they cannt be savage ani more! Ego and sturbborness are normally the more common factors which which will led the rather easy to solve problems into some kind of crisis which will result in hurtin the both party, often deeply!

In my personal point of view! wantin an angel to just pop into ur life and then live happily ever after is almost impossible! if U wan ppl to lyk u! to take note of u! to show u care and concern! first u must start off with urself! relationship and friendship is unlike studies, there shouldnt be ani goals in mind, but is the feel that really matters! U will not always reap wat u sow! sometiomes u will get a unexpected windfall yet sometimes all ur crops may die! but it is how u stand up and prepare for the next batch of crops! U wan ppl to respect u! start by respectin ppl! u wan ppl to love u start by lovin them! U wan ppl take note of u! start by takin note of them! and start with this word TRUST. Try feedin a dog meats instead of bones, try givin the cat fish instead of junks. Things will change for the better.

If u ever had a girl in mind! which make u cry! which make u angry! which make u sulk! which make u high! which make u smile! and no matter how hard u are tryin u cannt forget her... which still hurts when u see things that are once so close to her! that still itch ur heart when somethin is happenin to her! that still wan to make u pretend that U nvr met her before.. don force urself to forget her! but rmb her! don force ur mind to erase her, don pressurize ur heart to delete her but tell ur soul that a part of her still remains in u! and she will wan the best for u and move on..


-u can lie to ur heart,ur soul, ur mind bout the person loved! but once u see that person ur expression will reveal the truth which u had been hidin!


jiayou javier~

most miserable day of my life

I suddenly felt so stress! so freakin stress! everyh=thin just gave way!one by one i fought for to gain trust and respect yet one by one it failed me! i don know... im really dam stress. Health,Results,family,frens and u! all of it i out in effort to attain wat i hope to see! and just when i tot i saw the light! i failed once again! i failed lyk i was in primary school! i felt so useless! dumb! rubbish bin! i felt so un-needed! i don understand why! perservin ur smile! creatin a trouble free home, "B"results! frens who understand rather then take advantage! and cuttin down on weights! i don know! all of my aim all failed me one by one! im miserable.really donkey miserable.

sry.

I don know! i really don~i don understand! Since the two of u are angry wif me! then the problems lies wiif me rather then wat i used to think~ I am onli tryin to protect the two of u! becos the two of u means alot alot alot to me! I always believe that as long as u girls are smilin im right! im on the right path as long as the two of u isnt sulkin! i tried so hard! put in so much time, considerin every aspect! thinkin about every possible way i could do, every possible role i could play so as to savage and glue both of ur smile forever! I think for now! i failed! really failed, because i totally do not understand wat u girls need! i think maybe my greatest mistaker isnt lyin or not tellin! isnt apologisin or personal ego! but a little too concern about how to keep the smile glued to both of ur face until i forgotten how to live lyk a proper man! I think that is my greatest downpour!

Seriously speakin! the both of u did brought alot of joy and laughter into my life! The both of u are so blur at times, till the point i cant believe that u are my fren! the both of u are so fantastic at times, till the point i totally give in my heart to! the both of u are are so nice at times until i cant believe im actually livin in mother earth! the both of u are so so so wonderful! in term of frens, best frens or watever! when im typin this post, my brain is playin like a recorder! i can clearly remeber the times when u make me laugh so hard! the time when u made me feel warmth in the darkest nite! I felt i was loved! i felt that im finally the center's of ones eyes! i felt happy. really happy, from the bottom of my heart. But everytime! every time when i shared somethin unhappy about myself to u guys! i sort of find that u guys are feelin depressed! some wat sad! and for me! i hate to see ppl i lyk that much! treasure that much to be sad! even the slightest bits~i just hate it! And since that is the cause of the ll the problem im facin! i should cover it up wif anithin, ani possible ways to cover up the problem! i always think that wat im doin is the best for all of us! but now the resultn is so negative! one of them is angry! and the other is either fed up! or don even wan to see me again! best if i just die!

I don know if that is wat ppl always say: don act smart! becos u are not smart at all! i just felt very very sry to put u ladies throught this, which is so unncessary if not of my stupidity! No wonder i make the both of u so angry! im really a big bug idiot! my way of 大男人主意 is just so wrong! cos in the end im not gettin wat i wan! the smile glued smile form the both of u! "when i put myself in the shoes of both of u! i found that, wat i did was really intolerable and Idiotic! I didnt know that im so selfish! Wat i onli knew how to do was to make decision which i think will benefits u ladies most instead of considerin wat is it that u really wanted! Who would wan a fren who onli shared happy moment wif them but keep all the sad moment form them? who would wan a fren to lie to them! or to interfere in their life almost 24hrs a day! who would wan a fren to decide wat is right for them and let the fren thake away the ur ability to choose! who would wan a fren who will try to put on a mask in front of u everytime he meets u! where is the stabilty? how can i then trust this fren? how then can i then believe this fren of mine will be faithful to me, today! yst! tmr! and alot more tmr! So wat if he is good! so wat if he is carin! so wat if he lyks and wan to protect me! he isnt givin me the proper respect which i should get! so wat if he is a maker! so wat if he promnise me the stars and the moon! he couldnt understand the basic aspect of frenship! i felt as if my 感情 had be conned by this guys! completely! he is just a big big big big big asshole! who thinks that he understand everythin but he didnt! "he didnt even understand why i woke up in the middle of the nite to sms him when he was insulted by his fren! he didnt even understand why I kept quiet when eveyone was disturbin him! I doubt he understand why I cared about him so much! all he knows is to apologise! and even if he does apologise! did he even know wat he is apologisin for? all is he apologisn for the sake of apologisin thinkin that apologisin can get him throught everythin! I always thought he understand me, that y i trusted him so much! that y i make a pact wif him allowin him onli to call me 'cute' that y i speak to him when i feel upset! but time after time! chance after chance he failed me! hen totally don know me! he know nth! his words of promise sound so nice that i just wish time hang from that moment! but wat's the point of promisin if he is goin to break it 2 or 3 months down the road! he just don understand me!" " Wat is the point tellin him all of my 心事 when he didnt even wan to share wif me his? am i that un trust worthy to him? then wat is all this smsin? wat is all this little chat session i had wif him? was it just another show or act he put up to lie to me? how then can i trust him? wat did he see me as? did he even treat me on the level of fren! how important am i to him? just another donkey or monkey lyk wat he always mentioned? am i that low class? Wat does he think he is! some kind of hero who happy-dally popped into my life and tell me that he will protect me for the rest of my life? Wat is the point of bein a fren if he just wan to become a hero who come and goes as he wans? wat is the point of bein nice to me when he is just goin to crush wat we have built lyk legos? just how important did he see our 感情? a child's play? MASA? is he worth it? is he? just another sucker who wans to act cool! just another asshole which thinks that he knows anithin and everythin! Let me tell u in the face man dude! u DON!"

Took me long enough to find out that wat i always think im right and best at is wat im most stupid and idiotic at! Im sry for bein so slow and stupid! imagine how much i had hurt u girls! it just pain my hearts! seriously speakin~ Death is not an issue i will bother much about! but u girls are the things which i will nvr nvr be able to forget and walk past as if ani donkey did! Im wrong this time! seriously wrong! so wrong until i don know how to repent! don know how to make up! don know how to forgive myself! but i think, i still owe the both of u one apology! since becos of my immature thinkin i had make u suffer this much! I hope the two of u can find a fren next time! sry~ i couldnt forgive myself! my misdeed is just KNS! I failed to be the promise one! i failed to be the carin one! i failed as ur fren.

Sry! tian-cai! for everythin.
Sry! huiting! I failed.
Im sry ladies! really apologetic.



-jz(asshole)

words of depression

Should i or should i not? i no longer know! im so confused! so veri veri confused! i know that u are unhappy! those starin starin thing which u did! i know that u don wan me to be close to anione! i somehow know all of that. but how am i goin to ensure the safety of this another innocent girl? she isnt an weapon! she isnt a tool! she is someone i treasure as much as u! she is that special to me too!

U arent given me hope! u arent givin me ani chance to repent! u arent givin me anithin, u arent givin me the ability to move forwards or backwards! u are just tryin to make me angry! veri angry! veri lonely! and very down! if not for all of my other frens! i would have giv up long ago! u broke me! u broke my heart! and u are unhappy when i am wif other girls! yet u wan me to see u wif other guys! WTH! i don know! if love is blind! i hope i will nvr lyk u ever again! it is painful! way to pain! i don know! wo mei you yong bah!

BYE!

hey guys! miss me! i bet u do right? well! sad news! is experiencin shit now! First i hurt a girl! a girl i lyk so so so much! Actually all was a misunderstandin which cannt be explain based on the situation now! facin hell all day round! waves after waves of torment gushes into my head as if it was tornado! no a tsunami! not even one hour of peace sia!
hey girl!
I know u heard enough of apologies! and yea! i think u heard enough of explanation? is this all? is this how things should end for both of us? i no longer know it animore? is lyk i m tryin so hard to patch things up! yet u come forcefully and tear it apart as if tat was wat u wanted! u might not know! but ur little little expression where u gloom are lyk needle which not onli pierce my heart but stab it constantly! the song which u sent me! everytime the rythms plays in my heart! my heart start poundin faster! and faster! breathin deepen! until i couldnt breathe properly at all! the feelin of lost! the feelin of recivin the feelin of U! it just hurt so much i wish i was shot immediately! hiax! blame myself for not cherishin u!

Hmm! haha~ hiax! sianz! crap! shit! took my pay but still feel shit! hiax! not despo! hiax! not dreamin! hiax! i lyk u~ hiax!

regrets

I think i have made a terrible mistake by sendin u that msg yst nite right girl? u must be thinkin that i am good to u for a purpose! u must have think that i am a hole in a hole in a pigeon hole right!i am sry! real sry! was no longer clear of wat i wanted yst nite~ hasty and alot of assumption created misunderstandin which i didnt manage to see and clear. everythin turned into a mess when i suddenly became impatient and toss away that piece of necklace~ to me it was lyk tossin away all the hopes i pended on u.next comes the dream,which made me lost control of my emotions.. and ya~ i did somethin which i wasnt suppose to do. When i settle down and calm down! then i realise how foolish i am to do thing lyk such. i regretted it! seriously regretted it! just hope that wat i did to u the nite before didnt hurt u! for i will hate myself forever if i hurt u! im sry~ regrettful! and missin u!im so so so idiot~ so foolish! so jiazhen...

Im a big bad IDIOT!

HEY~ do u know what hurts and scare me the most? Dreams! do u know why is it dreams? becos wake up! i must comfort myself everythin is just a dream! when it becomes a habits, i nid to face this fear of wakin up and sleepin everyday! that is how scary it is to me! will things turns into reality? i doubt? i don know? im confuse!

First thing first! happy b'd to my dearest mother! hope that u will will be as happy as a nut! but don turn into a nut la! afterall! i wan a happy and carefree mother rather then a mother! it hurts my heart to see u angry or feelin sad becos of my actions! i will promise u i will be good! so that i can freeze ur smile till eternity.
slept for 3 hrs yst nite! hmm.. ya! was broodin over somethin! but NO! i nvr emotional breakdown! i just felt very bad! veri veri bad and sry to some of my frens! after i heard from cherry wat u said! my heart just shattered! i didnt expect,didnt think, didnt imagine not even dream that u will say those words to me. Was my care for u not enuff? was it that i had bein doin the wrong things from the time i decided to help u? was it that.... Im no longer sure wat i did for u was right! am i right to exchange my frens and her moodiness for ur smile? am i right to stand by ur side even if the whole world will turn against me! had i done somethin wrong yst nite? i really really don know!
I wanted to keep my promised! i wanted to keep u free from tears! i wanted to keep u free from anithin that might hurt u! i wanted u to be happy! but~ i don know! i got so flared up becos im worried bout wat u did! u wanted him to giv up! u wanted him not to waste his time! but that is just not the way to do things! that is just so incorrect! by lettin more ppl know bout u and him! u are not onli hurtin him but urself too! do u now that? if u hurt him! his frens will hate u~ u will have less frens! u will feel sad! and alot of other veri inconvenient stuff will comes in~ if the whole class knows about it! Steph may knows! and from the present data we had so far! Steph has the highest possibility of lyk him! and u will make urself another enemy and make one of ur frens moody over it! ppl in the class may also not agree to wat u are doin! cos from alot of ppls point of view~ he isnt a bad guy! he is quite a "popular" in the class, they may deemed ur actions as somethin bad rather then the way u think it is. In my point of view! wat u are doin is suicidal rather then makin him giv up! i don know~ wat maybe the best way for u to tell him this! but a face to face talk is unavoidable if u wan things to go that way! so ya.. i don know! maybe wat i said was bullshit! i just arrgghh... feel veri vexed up. do u know u just poke somethin sharp into my heart yst? it hurts! really hurts! i don know y u are doin it! but ya~ i had always deem u as a close frens! so close that i am willin to go to the extent of goin against 2 of my most important pillars in life! but but~ u showed me in one nite that i was really nth to u! u told me cherry that i was sidin him when i almost giv up everythin in return for ur smile! i just don understand y do u wan to say that! im always standin by ur side, helpin u to keep alook out on appraochin dangers! but nvr nvr nvr did i dreamt that u will actually say that im just sidin him when i am not! Im not regrettin for wat i have done, neither did i felt ani happier by doin that! but i just i just wanted u to be happy and stay unharm at the end of the days! Im sry that i broke my promise yst! im sry that i made u angry yst! im sry ting! im sry yy!im sry for tryin to act smart!im sry for bein a smart alec! i just don wan u guys to be gloomy and sad at the end of the days.. Im so sry for everythin guys! it is all my fault! so all of u just pls smile! and ya~ thank you cherry! really thanks!
i don know how to cont le! just hope the best for u guys! ya thats all! so ya.. pls be happy

fan fan fan fan

hello guys! yep! i know i just posted somethin today mornin! yep! i know this is just wastin ur time! so pls for those who don feel lyk seein stuff which will make ur body-hair stand, move ur cursor to the top right-hand corner! see the X button? yep! u are right! click it! wad? ask u weather to close tabs anot? eh! press yes! ya! gone right? magical right! lol! ya! i know! im just bein lame! yea! but other then bein lame~ i don know wat else i can do! yea! i really don know wat else i want to do!
U made me so so so confused and vexed up over these things! so much so~ that i cant sleep well at nite! so much so that i cant stop thinkin of wat u are doin every now and then but still worried that my SMSes will make u frustrated and irritated! so much so that i still pick up my phone now and then hopin to see ur name appear right infront of me! I don wanna give u extra stress lyk wat my fren done to ur best frens! i don wan to give u stress and force u to make decision base on impulses or stress.. I want to give u the previlage of havin all the time to ur own! i wan u to be happy! i wan u to smile lyk a nut! i wan u to be everythin~ every every beautiful i seen in my life! Im sorry! i have been under lots and lots of stress recently! exams! frens! family!... i wanted to squeeze out more time! maybe just that extra 5 mins for me to pick up the phone to see how u are doin! but i just lack the courage and time to do so! SRY~ for everythin that got to do wif not callin u! Im puzzled! seriously puzzled by ur actions! I no longer can tell if ur actions is a act of courteousy or have other meanins to it! i force myself not to think too much! i ask advice from my frens! but still... i came to conclude that it was the act of jealousy! the conclusion got me happy for quite a few days! before ur words hit me head on and put me to exile again! there was this time! when u suddenly have a total change in behavior to me. THAT feelin is unbearable! it is lyk takin away all the sweetness in an instance and flooded me up wif toxic! it is suffocatin me! it is killin me bits by bits!it just hurts to the core and leave me awake throu out the nite! are u really happy doin that? is this really wat u wan? i don know! im not sure! im confused!!!
Do u still rmb this poem? i don eat in the mornin becos i miss u..
i don eat in the afternoon becos i miss u..
i don eat in the nite becos i miss u..
i don sleep at nite becos im hungry.. still rmb this poem u sent me? i couldnt sleep that nite! i couldnt imagine that u would actually send me this kind of things! i was so so so excited and happy that nite! u told me it was cute! and yea! really it was! but i just cant stop myself into thinkin u are actually hintin me... and when those thoughts flows down each and every veins in my body! i felt the sudden sure in courage, happiness and HOPE. im a loser! maybe u did that out of courtesy maybe u mean somethin more then it! maybe u find that it is a good piece u must share wif ur frens! maybe u wanted me to see it! maybe u wanted me to forward it! or maybe... i don know! sometimes when i feel vexed up or have a small conflict wif my frens or family! ur smile will force away all my feelin and make me smile radiantly again! sometimes! i just wish to spend that little more time wif u! i value all those train ride wif u by my side! i treasure all those time i spent together wif u! i rmb and will nvr forget each and every single words i used in a phone conversation wif u! i hate to see ur tears! i hate to see u feelin sad! cos each and every of that expression breaks my hearts! i promise u wif happiness! and i will accomplish my promise even if im not the one by ur side! as long as u smile at then end of the day! I hope to e the reason u smile for, the reason u drops ur tears for.. and the reason u get angry for! becos im nvr goin to make u feel that drop a single tears or get angry~ i don know how! but i will do it! i think! i feel! i promised!
to evoke a feelin takes time..
to stir a sense takes seconds..
to miss u takes mins..
to think of u takes hours..
to be love u takes week..
to be wif u takes months..
to be together for a lifetime takes years..
to make u bring u happiness and laughter takes my lifetime..

Ur happiness is my choice! it has been and will always be... Even if im not the one by ur side everynite!

fan fan fan...

Seriously! I feel dam sick and tired today~ really! i almost fought wif one of my best fren! and ya.. i almost fought wif her! seriously! Till now~ i don know if wat im doin correct! Did i really help the wrong side? im so not sure! i don know! yea! im confused! so confused and frustrated until i don feel lyk gamin or wateva! i don know~ i don wan! but i did! hiax~
I think~ sry is all i can say to those which i had hurt! I don know! zhen de hen fan!
Am i dumb or wat? I must be! why did i do? i actually hurt all my dearest ones? sry thye whye~ sry sry! i may sound a little too harsh today! Im deeply sry for wat i did! I shouldnt have said those nasty words! im a big idiot! i should have put myself in ur shoes and see how u will feel! i should have try to understand u more! i should have try to make things better from u! I should have played my part as a fren~ I should have stick by ur side throu this time! i failed! i failed! im a freakin failure! im sry~
I don dare to think too far... i don dare to question if we had that feelin for each others? i wonder if u think that way too! I always lyk u~ without ani doubts! u shld be able to know that! I really don know if wat u are feelin is jealousy or the fear of losin... but! no matter wat! i will be by ur side! lyk i always promise! ur happiness is my choice, it has been and always will be! Im such a big fat loser becos other then sayin that im sry! i don know wat i can say animore! i wan u to be happy! be it by my side or not by my side! i wan u to be the happiest girl on earth! lyk i promised! but~ but~ i didnt make all of that come true! recently, there is just too much thing s for me to stress on! my exam! my frens! my life!... there is just so much thing to stress on such that i cant giv u the squeeze out moe time for you! i really wan to tok wif u! i really wan to tell u somethin sweet~ i really wan u to be the happiest girl on earth! but somehow! things had been goin way out of control! things are so unpredicted! unrefine! unexpected! Wat shld i do? wat shld i think? how shld i act to make u feel better? Im just a shit hole in a hit hole in a shit hole! im just a big bad sucker~ i don know! i don really don know!
I have exchange for two of my most important thing~ to help u! pls cherish it! pls pls!


hiax! i hen fan!

rainbow

Hello guys~ how are all of u doin? doin super great right! first of all i will wish to wish ur all good luck and fortune for this entire month- the hungry ghost festival... may all of u live throu it peacefully. And of cos! i haven forget u guys! may all of u be happy and stressless for the comin o level exam! i will always be there to support u! ^^ haha!

My life wise! yes! presently i am preparin for my comin exam on monday! and i have two paper that day lor! dam stressful! sianz! but~ i think i should be able to brush it throu... don know la! see how first lo! i got a veri strong feelin that maths! is sure die de! cfm~ cmi! haha! lol~ but will put in my best la! and maybe~ maybe! got small chance that can make it bah! haha.. Frens wise~ so far so good lor!

haha! i tell u guys! today dam drama~ Was meetin a girl at punggol inter today but she woke up late so i got over to SK to wait for her! then happily wait at the presumed " bus-stop" thinkin that she confirm will be there hopin to surprise her... but of cos! act smart onli~ she waited for bus at another bus-stop, meanin that i waited an hour plus for nth~ after and hour! i decide not to wait animore as i was seriously late~ so reluctantly i left the bus-stop and board the bus. to my surprise~ she also board the bus! but unaware of my presence~ so i kept quiet and alight the bus when i reached pretendin that i didnt meet her! lol! dam qiao right! haha~ then when we met~ she was lyk angry becos i didnt wait for her..... lol...
wat a joke! haha! omg! stop the postin liao! i nid go study liao! BB~

pls give me ur opnion after readin it


I hope to be the 4 weathers in ur life..
Because sometimes..
I could be sunny,
so as to make u smile as radiantly as the sun.
sometimes..
I maybe rainy,
to help u empty all of ur sorrow and tears.
sometimes..
I would be windy,
so that i can put~ a little kiss on ur face whenever i passes u.
sometimes..
I must be cloudy,
To cover up the pain u feel in ur heart.
But~
I think it is best for me to be me myself..
so that, i can
love you,protect you and look after you..
throughout all the weather and season..


-jz

Hi guys! lol! im back! how are u all doin? must be doin well right? cos i nvr heard ani news of u guys not doin well! so far so good right? lol! sry for not postin this few days... cos ya! a little busy wif school work~ project and things lyk that! okay! pls don be shock~ but jz who attained a beginner cert in swimmin can swim breast stroke to and forth the pool in 2 mins 57 sec time~ which is lyk so much better as compared to my last timein which is about 5 plus 6 mins! so ya... congratz me! haha~ all the hard work had finally paid of lo!

As for work wise! so far so good but failed one of the CKT test~ cos i didnt study! lol! so no one to blame accept myself.lol! Frens wise~ im havin more and more frens! so ya... it is a good thing. haha! weight wise~ i don know! lol! is lyk so long before i last check my weight le! lol.

Relationship wise~ yes. no change im still single! it is just that now I threw the ball out to see if it rolls back to me! if it dosent we are not meant to be! so ya~ im lyk wsitin to see how things will proceed and how things will end in the end! afterall! i havent forget my past mistake~ lol! so ya~ don jump in to quickly! unless u are lookin for ur death.

chronosphere....

I hope I can have...
just one second wif you,
to giv you the kiss of my life.
Maybe Half a minute is fine,
I will fill it up wif i love you.
Grateful if you give me one full minute,
I will look at u till my eyes turn white
One hour will be prefect,
I will hug u till the day turns night.
However One day will be sweet,
I will make your smile like a lollipop sweet.
One month will be lovely,
So much so that u will smile in your dreams.
I think One year will be just enough,
for us to built our very own hut.
But forever is what i look for...
because my love for you is eternal.

Im back ^^

Hey guys! guess wat! yes! jz is back to bloggin! so how? did u all miss me? did all those blog stalkers got tired of my blog for those long weekend which i stop my postin! do u guys wan to see the crappy jz post something crappy and yet extraordinary on his blog again? haha! i know u guys are dyin for that right! lol! okay! first first! i hope and know that some of u guys are doin very well in that period of time! wow! such a positive thing to think about right? lol! so guys! enjoy! and rmb to smile! afterall! smilin is the most important thing on earth. don u guys agree? okay! so a very warm greetings to u guys! and hope that all those good progress can continue and all those un favorable bad progress can be taken away by ur smile!

Okay! for those who knows me quite well or even worst, stalkers, u guys should have know that i created a test of how much u know jz on facebook! lol! seriously! some of ur answer are quite interestin! so interestin until i don know if u are just goin there to suan me or u really think it is that way! lol! do i look lyk a person who would giv up friendship for love~ lol! maybe! but seriously! i nvr tot of givin up friendship for love! and yea! if ever if there is a day when im force to make a choice! i will rather die! seriously! i think both friendship and love is equality important! i cant live without both of them by my side! contradict right? don have GF talk about wat love! monetary love la! lol! jk la! parental love, and crush la! lol! so ya! for guys who don know me that well! i know i low-class la! but my favorite delicacies isnt kuey chap! i lyk kuey chap! but love shark fin soup! okay~ for once i am not environmentally friendly! but who cares~ when u put that fin inside ur mouth and let it melts! wat more is better then that! imagine swallowin it! the slipperiness of the fins makes u feel as if a tofu is goin down ur throat! can u imagine it? nice right! lol~ im glad alot of ppl knows wat i don lyk! yea! i don lyk flirts! cos they are holes from the holes from the holes.... haha! that y i don lyk them -.-

well! fro my poly life~ so far so good! not much update! and of cos~ no GF yet! so ya! save ur curiosity for next time~ exam and studies wise~ hmmp.. i think so far still not bad la! cannt say fully understand wat some of the lecturer are talkin but at least understand quite abit la! recently i have just taken ckt quiz, dfund quiz, cer quiz, and maths quiz! and the highest percent of gettin a F grade is none but CKT! wth la! u know right! all the theory which i suck at and skip come out sia! is lyk~ 3 qns all kenna those i theory i don know de! kao1 is so heng de lo! i see already sianz diao liao! -.-! frens wise~ so far so good! had another new fren by the name of nich! quite a friendly guy! a nice guy! but a super super super ON match-maker! is lyk` he wun let even a slightest chance escape from him to match-make ppl la! other then that! he is quite a nice and fun guy to be wif~

My love life wise~ hmmp seriously i don know how to say la! isnt veri good~ but not that bad either! just got a girl who kinda stick to me whenever we are out! but as usual~ i wun bu zhi liang li or zhi zhuo duo qin! let waits and see how things really proceed lo! maybe! i m just a veri close fren of hers!-.- i hate the fellin of fallin into love yet knowin that there is no one to pick u up no matter how many time u call out for help from them! so ya! don giv ur heart so easily~ so that u wun feel so slippery and u will not fall in love! aiyah! see how time takes it path la!

that about all lo! actually got somemore things wan to post de! but shuo lai hua chang~ and frens askin for dota now! so ya1 will post until here! until then~ best wishes!

childish acts

I don think that is the appropriate time fr me to go in to such kinds of things! ur all should know right! that guy still lyk the girl! is not lyk he completely giv up on her already, therefore that is the reason why i cant! shouldnt and musnt enter those kind of weird relationship now! afterall! he still belongs to my dear friends right. How can i be so selfish lyk ur all mentioned! if i don giv my frens a chance to patch up! somehow! i just cant do it! lol! don ask me why! i also don know why i cant go in! yep! Lyk i mentioned! it is not lyk even if i use my mouth and ask! anithin will come out from it! seriously! since young! I honestly do not have much luck in that kind of things, so ya... it is not lyk will blossom or wat! and! last and most important thing. it is not lyk i lreally lyk her. i must say she isnt that kidn of a bad lookin girl, she is my type.BUT even if i really made it wif her! and i cant giv her anithin to make her happy to make her feel that she is fortunate! then y should i even start this relationship wif her! seriously! i dont know if i can giv her happiness lo! so guys pls! i beg ur all! don gossip bout me and her! i don mind bein a clown at the end of the day! but usin my name to make fun of the other is just too wrong! ur must learn how to respect ppl! ur all must respect her! U surely don wan to see the both of us avoidin each other becos of wat ur all say, would u?

BTW! i don think harry potter is that much of a lousy movie! it is quite okay! just hat lag of a lot of actions! so i will still recommend that u guys to go and watch! but rmb! buy some porcorn in to keep urself awake~ Fri, u guys are a little too guo fen le lo! u nvr see her wholde day face black black! and ya... she face black black is the result of ur all! but i was the one apologisin! is lyk so WTH la! so pls ar! stop it k? u know she aint gonna lyk it, the pace ur all are movin us! y not let nature decide wat is best of us! if really feelings are there, everythin will go the way ur all fought for right? so pls pls! stop all those childish act!



so far so good. life is good! health is good! everythin is good! really no thime to do ani postin! will update ur all about me next time when my exam is over and i have the time! so ya!

confused!

Im freakin confused! really veri confused! y are girls lyk that? y must they do that to me? Im always thinkin too much, thinkin too hard, thinkin that I will follow the path of nature,unquestionably. The both of u really got me so so so confused! u are super duper friendly towards me! U told me a lot of things, which i wasnt suppose to know.Ur smile is so innocent, so pure, fill wif so much passion when i look into ur eyes! whenever i talk to u, u always avoid lookin at me! U seem so shy when u are wif other guys! yet so comfortable and carefree when tokin to me! U hate childish ppl yet u shared so much things wif me! u treat me as if i was somethin more the frens but yet nth more then frens! u make me so freakin confuse la!

U told me wat u wanted! i fought hopin to giv u somethin better, some more special! but in the end! i gave u wat u wanted originally! and then now! u show me somethin different! u tell em by ur actions this is not wat u wanted! I ran as far as i can from u! but u rent a motor bike and caught up wif me! I tried to kill myself wif fishballs! but u went out to eat all the fishball by urself! Y is it that no matter wat i do! it is always u who come to change it! i lyk owe u somethin last time lor!

No matter wat! i think maybe! is wo too smart liao! so think of things normally out of the box de! hiaz! this quote still rox! let nature take its course. i believe~ one day! just one day! everythin will turns clear.

my life

Life had been quite good for me recently! u guys know y? cos im already lyk sort of familiarize wif all the ppl in my class, although name is still a big question marks for me.

Wat is life? to me i think life is lyk eatin food! sometimes u eat the tasty food but sometimes u are force to swallow those nasty and disgusting pills. Life is somethin we all nid to go throu~ it has it ups and its down. the onli different between different ppl is the way they see life! some thinks that their life is full of sorrow and tears! some thinks that their life is crap! some thinks that their life is lousy in all ways. For me! im glad that i have a peaceful life! and i think~ in my own opinion that is a good life! a really good one!

My goal is to introduce as much happiness and laughter to this livin world!
my dream is to have a happy family that dosent fite at all!
my vision is to eat all the things that are nice!
my life is to be happy at all times! and make ppl happy if i can!

foolish

Went to matt's house for wrtorial project!finishin soon! porject after project! maybe this is poly's life. Recently, found out that no one is prefect and of cos, no one is in-prefect!

In my opinion! i think that all of the guys, animals, plants, all have unique ways of presentin themselves! take for example! i(bastard) always think that i can judge girl to the standard of beauty they contain, according to their looks and dressin! but i made a big mistake! Every man and woman were created beautiful,just that it is in different way! i used to say that those 3 girls in my class CMI-cannt make it! but i was terribly wrong! they do have positive parts that make them so beautiful!gorgeous!fabulous! and yep! they look stunnin when u think harder!


So! big sry to ani girl that i say CMI! Im too childish! too foolish! BIG BIG SRY! girls.

a little too not over you! (nice song)

eh! my title in max tune had change from nice lookin to good frens! which is lyk more practical and suits me more la! nicer also! nice lookin will be a lie if im usin it right? haha! and a big thanks to jaiver ^^ thank you for teachin me log! and ln! if it werent becos of u, i really don know how am i suppose to do those assignments! so yeah! really! thank you! ah! before i forget... thanks for lettin me complete GEARS OF WARS! yeah! really a nice game! cannt promise not to play e second time!

seriously! I don know wat to post! i don know wat i should say! i don know wat i should do! i don even understand wat is the situation now la! how should i react? wat is it im suppose to show? how is it im expected to performed when things come to this? why is it that i feel this way! why is it that things must happen this way! why is that Im so....... Y is it that after all this time of freedom i must have that kind of tied down feelin again? responsibility? pride? ego? what is it that hit me so hard that i can nvr outrun you! wat is it that stop me from shakin of you and racin to another check point! did I even succeed in wat i had done this past few months! did i really surpass wat im supposed to surpass originally? can i still keep up wif this race? do i have the quality to continue this race? do i have the skill, the ability, the time and passion to keep up wif this race? there are things that are once in a lifetime! wat must i do to keep that passion burin and yet outrun u and froget everythin about you? wat is it that i lack of? just wat is it>?

confused.

any one seen likable or not? the k-drama? got ani link for that drama? i wan to watch so much! eh! when i was askin around for links about k-drama! i heard tons of interestin facts bout ppl who enjoy watchin k-drama! i share some of the things i found out wif ur all! most ppl watch k-drama mainly becos of one reason! k-drama have good love story! beautiful scene! plus scenarios that makes the act so dreamy, touchin, lovely! but! that is not all! i also found out that there are 3 main types of k-drama which ppl indulge in! eh! i explain. ppl lyk me will lyk to watch k-drama which are more towards the side of happiness! as in, the actors will smile more! althought tears in k-movie is quite inevitable! next is that kind of ppl who lyks to watch a mixture of happiness and sadness! and lastly! to my surprised! most s'porean are saddist! they enjoy watchin k-drama wif cryin scene throu out the entire drama! is lyk so WTF! love wif no laughter dosent hurts ur hearts meh? maybe not! put do hurts mine! i don know y ppl enjoy cryin throu out the entire drama then lookin at another one where they don nid tears but blessin for the couples in the act.


first type: 85% laughter 15% tears
second type: 50% laughter and tears
third type: 90% tears and 10% laughter


*which one will u wan to watch?

B'd

Guys! thank you for makin my B'd such a memorable one! 3 days of celebration is finally over! yep! not lyin! serious! celebrate for 3 days wif different frens each day! Im now officially broke.It may sound stupid but wat make my B'd so memorable is the 3 days worth of celebration! and thanks alot guys! all those gift ur all gave me is so dam cool! cute..... memorable! thanks for the bears xiao zhu! and yep! thanks for the chocolates! im goin to be so obese after that! ya! thanks for the treat 4/4 guys! and thanks for the shirt! ys! but the size a little wrong! haha! ya! thanks for makin my B'd lyk a emperors' one, maybe more grant then that! lol! 3 days worth of celebration.... =.=! thanks for everythin guys.

Hope u guys found the real meanin in Max tune le bah guys! those slammin yet laughin and jeerin at the time when ur fren hits a lorry or head on to a wall! those xia-lan yet amusin ways u used to suan ur frens! those laughter... talks... we had after the game which is suppose to be a hateful one if not played wif frens! yes! that is wat i look for in max-tune! that is wat max tune is suppose to be! that is wat i had been chiongin my card for! that is wat these game suppose to make... fun and laughter for all of us! lol!

went to subway.... super disgrace! disgarce my parents, my ah. ma! ah.gong! and all of the chng. ancestors..... i tell u guys wat happen

let the shopowner be X(female) and i be Z

X:good afternoon sir! may i have ur order?
narrator:lookin at the sign board
Z: can i have THAT set of meal
X: sure! which bread u wan?
Z:huh?
X:the menu are on the side sir!!!
narrator:still unable to find
Z:anithin
x: will blah blah blah bread be fine?
Z:ya ya! sure!(fakin as if he knows wat is it)
narrator: X put some meat in the bread and some wateva....
X: do u wan it to be toast?
Z:huh?
X:tsk...
narrator:she toast it without askin Z and start servin other customers
X:wat vegetables do u wan sir?
Z:one toppin for $0.50? (tryin to be smart)
X:nope! free( givin me this expression =.=)
Z: can i have that 3!
X: sure(=.=) ani sauces?
Z:eh! chilli?
X:okay... animore?
Z:tomato?
X:tsk.. anymore?
Z:eh! wat do ur all have?
narrator:owner gone throu the sauce menu
X:mayonnaise
Z:okay! what biscuit do u wan?
X:(#.#)( givin the no idea face!) anithin...
Z:double chocolate?
X:will be fine
narrator: puttin the empty cup and passin Z his food!
Z:(thinkin that he really is veri smart) miss! u forget to giv me my drink!
X:(givin me the wtf face) pls top it up urself at the side!

super disgrace! felt lyk dyin! i so bloody suan gu la~! T.T


-jz

Well! watched " dragged me to hell" today! i must say the first half was pretty scary, yep scare the ah beng who was #@$%$#%@ all the way durin the ah beng so that he can shut up and watch wat he paid to to watch. My conclusion after the movie is: help someone when u can! u nvr know how that little actions of ur can make a big different in someone else's life. maybe they just by allowin that old lady to loan for a few more month can save the main actress! u know, just that small action needed for the chop of approval.
when i get back! saw a young lady wif her kids on the pram! that kid probably contracted wif some disease! probably don disease that cannt let u stand! btw1 u know his hand,legs,collarbone was clearly visible! it is just like skin on top of the bones! my heart sank almost lookin at him. It feels lyk im so blessed to acquire that size and that someone in the same country as me actually wan my size but can nvr get it before of some reason! i don know y? but i feel that im really blessed! I feel that god has been too fair to me and too unfair to this youngs kids which should be on thier feets roundin around in circle not endurin all the pain and pressure given by the ppl till he dies. it is so unfair right? maybe! im too blessed! some ppl wan to get fat also cannt! yet i kua kua jiao myself fat! but seriously! really too fat le la! haha
to jaiver- eh! my b'd not lyk kings b'd just that i don wan all my fren to come together! some of them may not get used to it.

WR' B'd

happy birthday weiren! 17 le wor! although onli 6 day faster then me -.-! yst, went to K-box to celebrate his birthday! eh! my first visit to K-box... erm! sang taiwan song(hokkien song), english song chinese song and alot more! had hell lots of fun! then got to some expensive restaurant to had our dinner! eh! seriously! i don lyk it! maybe becos i lao teochew don know how to enjoy or even appreciate this kind of food bah! but for me! the rips isnt nice! i prefer macdonald's double cheese burger instead of it! secondly! it is way to expensive! i rather eat in a coffee shop la! the funny thing is this! i got home and tell my brother about this.He say i so cheap-skate better don find girlfriend, find liao die ar! high class thing don know how to eat! everyday coffee shop, fishball noodles,chicken rice,hokkien mee she confirm gen ren pao!=.=! seriously got so bad meh? omg la! i must serioulsy go and learnt how to eat that kind of things liao lor!
Went off together wif jaiver after that! walk by singapore river! thinking thorough things and hearing recent gossip about some of my frens! yea love again! those who don wan see this or think im goin to crap can move ur cursor to the top-right hand corner! yes that X button! ya! press it! thank you!-.- EH! before i say anithin! ZY! sry! i couldnt accept it! i tell u why now! Im some "freakin swine" that believe if that if u wan to stead! u must giv in everythin to ur partner! ur love. u must spend most of ur time wif her, make her smile, show her u nid her, make her know that this is goin to go on and on, giv her everythin u can afford. Somehow! i have a very strong feelin that i will not be able to giv that to u!i cannt giv u 100%. i don wanna hurt u in aniway! aniway! there is still so much time in our poly life isnt it? lets make the full out from it don u think so? and if i ever feel that way, i promise i will never leave u!
I know it takes mammoth courage to say those three words! i said it before but i wasnt accepted! that time i went for real! i was willing to giv every single thing to her! soul,body,brain,cash, anithin... as long as she opens her mouth to ask for it! i wasnt given a chance. maybe she is thinkin exactly the same as wat im thinkin! "can i giv u all?" ..."can we last?"...."is this a crush or goin for real?"... seriously! i don know! pls give me some time to figure it out! AND THANKS UH! wth! PUBLIC leh! u might as well go down on ur knees also! jk! U wan to know why my reaction lyk that right! i tell u why! cos all the aunties in the freakin MRT heard u and turned to face me! haha! althought my ans wassss superrrrrr... stupid "wait uh! i think first!" seriously la! u say i fun to be wif, giv u sense of protection.... wth! i fun to be wif meh!-.-! all my frens say me kl-king leh! some even say xl-king! and the most stupid thing to say on earth la! lard not muscle wat sense of protection? lol! ur reason dam stupid lor! but seriously la! after wat u SAID on that MRT ride,i cannt sleep that nite la! in my heart is an-shuang de lor! is lyk so unbelievable la! but really leh! ps! i dare not accept it! maybe pig must still be wif pig and swan wif swan la! pig can nvr be wif swan de lor, in my point of view! tmr school start le leh! sleep well! not u not good! is i don deserve u at all!aniway! u are still my good sister! hao mei mei! sry! but u must agree im taller!
hahaha! i hope i did not hurt u in by tellin u this! but really bu hao yi shi!
270609~ who free? my B'D can come out? see this quickly contact me!i don think i will go aniwhere ex! i broke liao T.T! life's lyk that! -.-


past cannt be change
time will still move on
fate will determines those things
destiny will lay path for us
u will be the female hero
and me the male hero
future will unfold things for us
so let the clock go
and see how it will progress

let's see! im now a official sub-comm of E2-matrix club! omg! don know wat is E2-matrix club? the club that is known for its collection of engine school chiobu! omg! im accepted! haha! the campin was hell lots of fun! Guys once u join poly, u will know the difference between a got budget camp and a no budget camp. no nudget camp includes camp food! but got budget camp replace it wif food hunt around singapore. no budget camp will have crappy activities like the fire drill to disturb u when u sleep, but got budget camp let u sleep in air-condition room all the way till 9 in the morning. no budget camp have confidence walk which are either lame or the ghost are dumb, but got budget camp change the landscape to a more scary one although the ghost also not scary. imagine eatin supper at 1 watchin movie at 11 and bathin anitime u wan! wat more can we ask for? omg! campin never seem so fun!
eh! yst got to pasir ris park for some BBQ wif my old school mate! one word to describe they all changed! all look so much mature and so much fitter of cos except me! -.- well! i must say shuwen look much nicer compare to the pass! maybe becos of the lightin but ya! got improve la! but still nid alot of improvement! lionel looks hall lot fitter, muscular! wow! good shape! envy envy! nvm! one day i will also have it (I HOPED ^^) minghan and adeline also! look more style and of cos CR, omg also maybe becos of the lightin he dosent have so much pimple which is lyk wow! look so much more handsome liao lor! dawn will ai shi ni! haha! well everyone except 2 had not change for the better! one is of cos me! a swine today, a swine yst and a swine the day after i think one year also not much change. got another guy go cut wat wild boar(maple) hairstyle omg! u not boar go copy them for wat! hiax! haha! heard all of ur all are doin well! great! that is the spirit.
JJ go jio ppl go out leh! u see la! i go out wif all my batch of frens liao accept ur all leh! go jio ur chelsea, snowwhite, sylvia, yeow boon leh! my holiday almost up le leh! u don jio then nid to wait liao le leh! come'on man! birthday is commin~ not hopin for it to come becos the chicken rice auntie call me uncle instead of ah boy! omg la! i know i got the shape of a 40 years old uncle but also don nid call me lyk that mah! die le la! ppl say my face nvr change u know y? cos the meat cover all the wrinkles so cannt change -.- win le lor! haha! miss all of u guys wish that all ur wishes come true.




never had a dream come true
till the day that i found u
-jz

WOW! yesterday was a super duper tirin nite! cos it was CER bbq! well! didnt go home last nite cos didnt manage to make it back by cab! no choice nid to wait for bus! poor ppl is lyk that de!
yst! manage to spend sometime myself by the beach! tot throu alot of things! tell u hor! i feel lyk my life dam dramatic leh! maybe im dramatic la! i don know leh! this mornin right! when i was takin bus to east coast park! i saw one pair of couple just sittin right in front of me. that guy gave the girl a necklace sia! the girl was lyk so bloody happy, then the guy suddenly say! this is the last time i will give u this kind of things! wah breakup sia! then the girl was lyk diam diam then keep rubbin her eyes! i think she is cryin la! poor thing lor! when i see that my heart sink! i felt lyk... if love make u choose to be wif the girl! then no matter wat u must hold on to the girl until the end mah! its not lyk one necklace will solve everythin or wat lor! so dam irresponsible! if u cant give ur 100% wat for stead? if u stead wat stop u from givin ur 100%? i don see the point la! hate flirts now! hate flirts in the past! and hate flirt in the future! cos they are sucker who dosent appreciate or even respect this word love! love is actually a great word which carries a simple meanin! somehow they just don see it
best still at nite right! the beach is filled wif couples leh! then u see them huggin each other! whisperin to each other ears! holdin hands and swingin in the moonlight! wah! actually for me that is already lyk the most happy thing on earth already la!of cos i felt happy for them! see all their sweet smiles, see all their hugs! omg! it is lyk i can also feel the presence of love all around me la! and yep! im also a little jealous.... cos until now still none! -.-!
my personal views on love is that! it is a great word wif simple meanin and have extraordinary abilities to change things! erm! i don know about ur all but! the ability to love and to care for someone is the best thing god had given me!

-jz
*extreme sports is on next next week matt! rmb! don ps me

Hey guys! long time no see~ how are all of u doin? i really miss some of u guys... erm! marcus! eh! kunlong! eh! edwin! and alot more but im lazy to list it out. well! for some of them who keep askin for my exam,1-4june! but i will not be free for the first and the second week of june holiday!so if u wanna go out wif me! find a slot after that~ u know...." a friendly swine, is a popular swine" haha! okay! just to clarify! mathematics is killin me! wah!FUNCTION is super hard and vector is no where easier! dam sucks! lol! feelin dam bad makin matthew stay back after school to teach me maths! okay! after ur tutorial, things are a little clearer but overall I still catch no balls.

SRY ar matt! shouldnt have made u wait for me to eat first before teachin me! totally didnt considered the fact that u may be rushin for time. so dam sry bro! next time i know wat to do le! sry for this time! I know im bein very selfish but hope u will forgive wat i did! afterall i know u are not that petty afterall! cos u are "austrailian" and "austrailian" shldnt be unforgivin! haha! so pls forgive this little "singaporean" here.

erm! Dawn ar! lol! i apologize for havin excel in my laptop yet unable to help u! cos my microsoft excel is a TRIAL version! lol ps la! really dam ps! eh! next time if u nid my help i=and i can be of ani help pls look for me! i will try my best to help u solve the problem! but aniway happy chiongin of homework! ^^

eh! my life still nth special! eh! i still look lyk a pooh! and im still tryin hard to make myself look less lyk one! okay! that's about my life! extreme sport i commin! and don forget insane nite cyclin event! anione interested to visit old changi hospital at ani of the nite durin june holiday? i wan to go take a look of it myself! and one last thing before i sign out! JZ is officailly broke now and is goin to bankrupt! pls kindly don ask him to go out to ani high calss places to eat or wat! ty! don tempt him cos u know he cannt take temptation. A foolish boy that belive in world peace! and a boy belive that one day everythin will be prefect for him.

Belive and fite for it!
it is better to die tryin!
then live regrettin!
world peace!
tmr the world will be a better world.


-jz

Eh! maple today! okay! boring! lol! yesterday nite game until 4 in the mornin! then of cos sleep la! but somethin special happened when im sleepin! yep1 i had a dream! a very stupid but yet lovely dream! ok! i clarify, when i used the word lovely it is not = to lustful dreams ok. Im a failure in wet dreams okay! nvr had one before since i was born till now! how i wish someday, i will understand the meanin of bein wet.
erm! the dream is of cos! about somethin pleasant la! yep! don nid guess above love which i lack in! haha! i nvr know dreamin could be this good! aniway! if u onli wan to know wat im dreamin u can stop lookin for it cos i will nvr post it~ it is my secret afterall. hmm! i wonder if she is doin well! still lyk before? still so forgetful and always jam things up at the very last mins? haha~ missin u! do u miss me? i doubt so.
hey JJ! don be sad! girls( not all but some) are lyk that. one day, just that one prefect day, u are goin to find someone that loves u more than anithin on earth! and u are goin to spend e rest of the life wif her! shower her wif all the love and concern u can giv. u will stand up and ask her " are u willing to marry me?" u will live strong wif ur nvr fadin love. and she will prosper under ur tremedous care and concern! u will make her the happiest woman on earth and she in return will make u the happiest fool on earth! she will treasure u! miss u! kept on thinkin of u! and most importantly, love U! she will know how great u are and cover wateva flaws u have! she will sees all ur positive points and bring force those points to shine! she will be the girl to change u! consume ur flaws and ake u into a more prefect person! she will be out there to change u! care for u! dream of u! touch u! hold u! and most make it wif u till the world ends! so my buddy! don be dishearted by anithin now1 cos someday! sometimes! somehow! somewhere! u are goin to meet that special someone who will finish this some-story wif u!

-jz

Wonderful day for me guys! hope it is the same for ur all also! erm! let see! yst nite, got to victoria concert hall to catch a choir performance by one of my old fren.
I must say, even a music idiot like me feels that the singing and dancin is superb! it was lyk wow! Ok! seriously! i don know what they are singin but it soothes the ear and some of the performer are really dam funny! i was lyk laughin my way through when that guy was on the stage! fun and enjoyable!
Well! Well! y am i so happy today? i really don know. it is just lyk, the sun comes out at the right time and the wind hits my face at the right pace. food taste nice, pooh looks cute! everythin seems so prefect for me today.
exam is comin and and i totally catch no balls for mathematics la! dam sian lor! wat to do? tmr chiong study lor! plus ckt, Dfund omg! all seems so difficult to me la! sianz! matthew! next week meet for exercise! ok1 i think that is about it! nites.

love is in the air! LOVE is in the air! Love is in the air! omg!until now i still sense that love is all around us! and yea! isnt that somethin to be happy about? haha! okay! busy wif project and self-study! wth! lecture to me is lyk a complete waste of time, cos i don understand wat the lecturer is sayin and i don understand wat the book is sayin la! so ani kind hearted soul, pls enlighten me wat the lecturer failed to do.

Y? y? u suddenly so strange to me? y suddenly u act lyk that? wat is it i have done? y u want to show me attitude? y is it that i must always be at a losing end no matter wat i do? but no matter wat, seriously, take care! i wan to share ur burden... but i cant do so animore! so pls, take care, got ani things nid me to help then call me bah! don worry! everything will be back to normal very soon! everything will be fine very soon.until then really pls, take care of urself.

wah! today give up sit for old ppl on a bus leh! nvr knew that doin good deeds can actually give u happiness! haha! my new target! do good deed, be a man better then myself( im comin). know the importance of parental love! cherish it and play along wif it, it is wise to protect it when u still have possession of it! until every thing is too late! so! listen to ur parents more! they wun harm u aniway! paternal love is something very great indeed. I wan to be a better man.

Im trainin dota1 but still a noob in it! aniway! i will become better! okay! some reply's... wendy- i don know y u sms me weird weird things but don worry, i make fren wif u cos i accept who u are! and although u got flaws in ur character, u still make up a pleasant young growin lady, so pls! don be so negative of urself!
sweewoon- I don know how? and i really crackin my brain to think wat kind of crap u are up to now? hope nth stupid!
yingsiew- thinks will just get better, relax!
JJ- wei wei wei! u got me into deep shit le la! stop wat u are doin now! i demand it!
eric- i hope the two of u best of luck and, friday things make up ur mind soon!



that's all nites!

Eh! tonite is the nite before mother day, and obviously i cant sleep! u know y? cos i haven bought my mother a gift. omg! i still tot mother day was next next week lor! sianz! tmr go out eat wif her don know buy wat la! intending to buy roses but my mr.ting fren said that roses are for gays( he is one also) he told me to buy bird nest! yea! more realistic! but I am sure that in the end it is me who will drink that bird nest not her! it is lyk... i buy how many time liao le la! omg! i don know wat to buy lor! sianz!

Haha! max tune wif frens are seriously fun lor! u see even jem agrees to that! sometimes life is not about winnin, sometime losin will also bring u happiness and laughter. Heehee! on my way to become the happiest person on earth! I let down my greatest burden le! yea! i don wan kind of weird relationship wif her le! just normal frens! life without her is seriously much more happier and fulfilling. So guys! no more love poem le! don come here expecting to steal one! but of cos la! if ur all lyk my works so much, u can always sms me to write another one especially for u! fren 25% discount, good fren 50% discount... U know sometimes... ppl address me mr shakesphere! omg! i dam ps la! is lyk! i know im so clever but don nid to address me until lyk that de right! they should just address me prof. chng! that one more friendly lor! shakesphere life is hard!

eh! i hate poly! i prefer go back secondary school lor cos poly's lesson dam boring... plus they talk wat thing i also don understand! i used to think lecture is fun but not now animore~ lecture is borin super borin! I love the indian teacher la!
he cycle to school lor! he is lyk all those contractor lyk that but he is a proff sia, ren bu ke mao xiang! btw! today sms u guys somethin bout e personality test thingy!
here is the result:

1)if someone says that the thing he or she wants to steal is money! he/she is materialistic and onli be fren wif u cos he/she find that they can make use of u!

2)if someone says that he/she wans to steal ur face or valuables(other then money) he/she is jealous of u and unhappy wif their life!

3)if someone wish to steal ur eyes,heart or dream from u! he/she probably lyk u and wan to be on the look out for everythin that hurts u! and also he/she will try to prevent anithin bad to happen to u!

4)if someone wans to steal ur favorite thing from u( other than human) he/she will lyk to be wif u as long as possible.

5)if someone loves to steal everythin from u! he/she is probably unhappy about her life or he/she wans to be exactly lyk u!

6)if someone wish to steal ur tears and unhappiness from u! he/she is probably ur best fren/BGR on earth!

7)if someone wishes to steal nth from u! they are comfortable wif u!

8)AND if someone says u got anithin worthy of me stealin... -.- he or she IS either tryin to act cute or very confident in their life.

9)if someone wish to steal ur soul! that means he/she will lyk to love u for as long as it takes!

10) if someone wans to all those harmful things around u! he/she probably dosent wan u to get hurt in anithin!

11) of cos got other ans la! if they giv other ans! u can leave a tag here! i will reply u! 100 plus plus ans leh! i don wan to write out all.thats all nites.

tagged reply: JJ- crazy! i where got despo! no girl then no girl lor wat to do?
kl- seriously! i don rmb i got ani photo i take which is nicer then that! haha!

ok! today! life was good as usual.my "dear" boy ask me shit question about my blog and my om that is why im writing now to help him kill his boredom and clarify his thoughts. Okay! Im single! and i don have any one in my mind yet! it will be great if u can introduce me some girls which can be frens wif me. As for my personal message, Im writing it out of joy because i felt that it is both interesting and yet nice! no comment! plus for the girl thingy, she isnt in tp and i don thing u will know her so be a good boy and don come fan me over such minor stuff.

Asked by some of my frens about my standard for girls. if u lyk to know, no ah-beng looking,hate fierce girls, don nid veri cute, don nid veri gorgeous, don nid veri rich but i don mind if she is that kind of sua-gu type! most importantly i must lyk her and she must of cos accept me of who i am lor! that all. high expectation meh? so next time ur all see me walk on street wif a girl or hold hand wif a girl, u probably can imagine how the hell she will look lyk right? haha!

okay! stop talking bout girls! YW! gratz on becomin 825hp.me still 820hp. jaiver talked to me bout max tune today, seriously1 i nvr took max tune seriously before. I took it more as an enjoyment and bridge to built a communication wif frens. I no sure how ur all feel la! but for me, when i play, even if i lose, as long as i am happy, i lyk it. U don always have to be the winner to be happy, sometimes that satisfied look on ur frens face or some xialan yet humourous comment they gave is much more worth then the money i sped on that machine. Bein a key to my fren is wat i look for rather then bein a key to the game. afterall, wat for game if u are not happy! u are satisfied and im happy that i actually satisfied u! wat more is better then that!aniway! who wanna play max tune can call me lor! ur all also know my skill la1 sure lose de! but im free for challenge! oh yeah! today lost to A5 by 53m on osaka! omg! he really noob! his drivin style should be on grans tismo not max tune! full break then turn! wth! i brush here brush there still can catch up lor!

homework is fine for me! and i heard alot of u guys are doin dam well! yea1 happy for ur all! well! miss some of the popualr frens! snow white! chelsea! yuwen! yeow boon! liyan! wanlin! joyce! wendy! and most important and big shot one! Junjie! ^^! hipe all of u are doin fine and best wishes from me! btw! meet one day go out together leh! don one tell me exam another watch taiwan drama then some even tell me BUSY! wth! liar lor! cannt make time for me is it! i make time for u guys leh!

Btw! i am reading Ichigo 100% for the third time! u know y? because the story is dam interesting la! not because im despo to see comic girls panties for god sake! btw! they drawn tojo in a super cute manner la! and i really love that kind of personality she is havin! those kind of stupidity with a litte of innocence and cuteness... omg! it is lyk she is so prefect lor! and pls for god sake if u got the time! go read the manga! the story really interest me! see for urself y something so simple is made so difficult, a love so pure is made so hard! and i think mandaka loves tojo aya not the others girl! fortunate guy! but indecisive but maybe because he didnt wan to hurt the girls bah! aniway! nice manga! read it guys! don be faggot! feel the love roamin inside u! yea! link:www.onemanga.com go to all then scroll down under i then find the goddam manga!

with u or without u,
life must still go on!
if a life without u was given to me
i will leave wif it and be happy...
because life is all about bein happy!

Haha! got one silly girl ask me a silly question~ Y are u so happy everyday? am i? do i look happy? can i still be happy without her? i always doubt this question, until recently, I must put an end to all my silly hopes of you ever becoming wat i always wanted u to be.I really lyk to be with you~ wan to stay by ur side and shower u from all the harms in the ever-changing world.... but things are not the same from the past.
U changed dam lot until Im not sure anymore if it is the "her" Im looking for. maybe i should just let things go and comes at its own pace, maybe she should be given a chance or maybe... Im just a all talk no work idiot but one thing that is for sure! until u change, I will nvr lyk u animore!

love is the heart in me
U are the one that keeps it pounding.
everything has stopped now!
maybe that is wat we are looking for at the start
No matter wat~ be happy!
a life without laughter is a life better off dead~


whahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahha!

emotionally unstable

Lol! sry la! yingsiew... sry that i didnt wait for ur turn for the dramatec audition! but seriously! really!! seriously!!! I think even if u acted.... base on wat I know U will not make it! cos their actin is too good le! me too will not make it! cos i am actors that will shine onli in confusion state. haha! so don be a xiaoqi gui and be so happy over that! In fact be gald that jem is willin to go there and wait for u! oh yea! Btw! don balme everyshit on me! cos i did nth wrong. they don wan to wait is their problem, don make a big fuss wif me!for godness sake! Im not even inside the goddam conflict between the two of you la! and hor! not that i wan to make a big fuss out of it la! IT's just that don u think it is very funny? U got released earlier as compared to wat u told me the nite before and u actually came to a conclusion that ur early dismissal was my fault! lol! u dam cute lor! Still can say " then whose fault? teacher's fault? my fault? of cos ur FAULT la!" that instance i stoned....
BTW! I hate rumours la!kao! scare the shit out of me! yea! i know miss.w here is a good girl! just that she is exactly i duplicate copy of me! lousy luck in love~ but whoever the idiot that started this shit rumour should keep quiet and stop it le lor! cos even thou miss.w is a easy go lucky kind of person but if ur all continue to do that, U not onli dmg her reputation of bein wif a SWINE lyk me u will also not knowinly hurt her in her heart! this kind of inhuries are hard to recover la! as in from my point of view la! worst to the worst... later talk talk talk~ not happy here not happy there~ then take out all this shit to fite! so the best solution to prevent all that from happenin is u or whoever to stop it lor!U know it is for her good! for ur good and of cos for me to have a trouble free nite(bein selfish here) cos I have not gotten over her yet u know? but soon~ I will. I will soon be free again!
Swine flu! wth! all becareful leh! heard can kill de leh! pork must eat put don come in contac wif raw meat la! better be safe then sorry right! BTW! CKT is super hard la! digital fundermental also! kao! gate here! gate there! inverse gate? Or gate? kao! all looks the same to me! siao liao la! i mus chiong studies liao! don chiong will die! WA! rainin now! I love rainin days! but also hate it too! cos whenever it rains! my heart felt so light i felt lyk im flyin! the smell of the rapid evaporation from the first few droplets of the rain! the dark clouds reddish sky! wat else is more beatiful then that! take a few sip of the hot coffee.... wa! feel those warm liquid gently flowin down ur throat.... wa! suddenly felt so energise.BUT i hate those heavy rain out there cos i can see a image of u inside those heavy pourn water droplets! i did promise u that i will do somethin every rainin day~ but wasnt given the chance to! haha! aniway! wish u the best of luck! and yea! Ilovetherain


Mr A: Look in the sky...
Miss A:?
Mr A: count the number of star there is~
Miss A:y?
Mr A: just do it( wif a smile)
Miss A:1234...5..8..15...19..23
Mr A:23?
Miss A: yea.do U wan to tell me that each star stand for the love u have for me?
Mr A:NO.
Miss A: then?
Mr A:Have U ever wonder wat makes the stars glowin bright?
Miss A: the dark plain sky?
Mr A: yea! and that dark sky is wat everyone sees....
Miss A: wat about the stars?
Mr A: the star is wat ur parents sees in you!
Miss A:Oh! so wat about U?
Mr A: I see nth!!!
Miss A: so that is wat im to u( turn her head and walk off)
Mr A:(shakin his head) I havent finish my sentence... tsk... I see nth BUT you...

taken from one of shakesphere greatest work
-jeremy wee

Wohohoho! Im so dam super hyper today~ don ask me y! cos Im lyk that! No don think i take ecstasy! i didnt! Im a ecstasy myself! haha! i love pooh! i love pooh! i love my GOD DAM pooh! yea! world peace! CER roz! frens roZ! parents roz! neighbour roz! she roz! wohohoho....! super hyper ar!!!!!!!!
alright! some update on my life! yea!yea! don nid laugh! i got some god dam indian who is used to speakin INDIA-english to teach me ckt! wa! ur answer correct he shake his head! ur answer wrong he oso shake his head! but mai siao siao leh! ppl dr. grade leh! i heard, ppl in india squeeze cow milk in the money then chiong their studies at nite leh! super hardworkin la! it is onli they don have the same enviroment as us or else i think singapore sure got alot of top positon giv this kind of blackie take! mai siao siao hor! don go disturb those throw rubbish or cut grass de bangla... who know maybe they got a degree grade and Im still strugglin wif my diploma... they are smart and super hard workin guys, it is just that they are not givin the chance! hiaz! i so lucky.... aniway! back to the topic! the indian really dam funny la! he is teachin me ckt but i keep on think that he is sellin me roti prata then keep on askin me "roti prata kosong or wif eggs?" omg! laughin throu the lesson althought he nvr makes jokes la! his look lyk indian bunni sia! dam hao siao! the best thing is his slang! kao! he ask me understand? i still tot he ask me y i sms? ..... -.-
ok! as all of u know my comm teacher is a blonde! anione don know my eng standard? if u don i tell u! CMI!!!!!!! wow! imagine sittin inside a class wif one of the most spoken languages but don understand quite a number of wat she said! wth! her vocab is lyk so chim la! keep on use phrase! best thing is speak lyk a machine gun! i wan ask her slow down but scare ps! i ask me fren.... but my fren tell me simple eng don understand meh! WA! where got simple sia! she speaks lyk a dictionary la! dam hard to understand la! at least speak a little DJ wat la! kao! speak lyk u nvr heard hurt singlish before! singapore leh..... Passin that crappy subject anot will determines alot if i understand wat she is sayin! Im supposed to ask alot of question! but half of my question are not answered cos i don know wat the hell she is tryin to portray la! zeng hu ar! y in poly also got eng de!
U dam crazy! really dam crazy! if u wan me to be onli frens wif u, can u talk in a more correct way! kao! Im forcin myself into not belivin wat Im seein.... serious! that was too off la! y not just say it lyk a normal conversation! y wan to Add in some sensitive things... then later i wrong idea! u scold me! kao! talk properly la! but yea! u are very very very very fun to sms! super duper fun la! lol! relaxin to sms u! haha! misses u! hope u are doin well! and yes! use ur heart to see! not ur mind! not ur dream! and of cos not ur eyes! btw! Im driftin away! hahahaha! wun turn back lyk wat some smart alec did! maybe maybe~ i will! but until now still no thots of it yet!!!! wei! no matter wat happen! Im still ur fren! TC of urself wor! maybe that is all i can tell u from wat i am now! no matter wat! BE happy! oh yeah!!!!!!
I love pooh! i love pooh! i love pooh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat make me so happy?
dota?
pooh?
sleep?
shoppin?
family?
or you?
no matter wat! Im happy! yea! happy! super crazy today!

new chapter of my life~

sittin down by the beach this evenin! tot throu alot of things~ happy moment! and sad times! gentle gush of the wind kisses my face~ starin at those large cruiser floatin their way across the sea. somehow I felt as if time had stopped. Popped some M&M into my mouth, those sweet meltin candies reminds me of her! yea! those great moment of fantasyI had wif her! haha~ but she is gone for now! looked across the wide wide sea.... lights! those light looks so beautiful, calmin my tense feelin as if tellin me nth else will bother me animore! as if all my hopes will come to reality~ as if u are lyin right beside me... haha! that feels great! the sun yawned and the sky slowly darken, the wind grew stronger... soon enuff the plain plain sky is coated wif red! rainin? i tot. Memories of how we try so hard to be together, those efforts we put in! those time we spend! those tirin yet fun time we had... maybe Im not good enuff for u! or maybe U are not good enuff for me! or maybe there isnt maybe at all!I felt out of breath and decides to relax my mind. i took a quick glance around me. there was nth except an uncle bringin his young girl for a walk by the beach.... those sweet smile and cute looks of her reminds me of ur laughter! i MISSED it! and i can nvr forget it no matter wat happen! TMR is the day where i will have to forget everythin and enter the next chapter of my life~ a chapter without U ! a chapter where eveythin will be new! a chapter where all the definition of sweet dream will change! A chapter where i can be myself again! I think lettin things go is one hardest things to bein a grown up! i really don feel lyk growin up! i don know if i can move on... but.............there is no more but!

Took a look at my watch! 830pm! stood up.walk away from the beach. turn my head and said wat a good nite spent! TP! CER! Im chiongin to U! ^^ heavy bag! hiaz!

2 days after the orientation. TWO words to describe my feelin... SIANZ and even more sian.... althought the mass dance was super duper fun! but the icebreaker just sucks, imagine sittin down in a class room playin that kind of game and doin forfeit for one whole day.... wa! will die man! don ask me y! but my class onli got 4 girls leh! kao! cant even make it to let me enjoy a different view every day la! but the guys are fun! got quite a number of shuai ge! mei nuii.... sadly don have!~ mentor is shuai!!! some mentors are chio!!! dam cute la! onli if i have their looks and shape... -.- lets hope that everythin will be fun! engines roxz!!!! *.*


Somethin cannt be forgotten but somethin must be! for me~ i chose to let u fly? maybe that is all u wan!!! and i am not sad or emo about it! pls don say Im. ty

Is that wat u call friendship?

PLS stop doin this guys! it is not that Im sidin him or watever but it is way to ASS! for ur all to treat him lyk that. He may be wrong... very wrong, but no matter wat he is still some guys i truly look up to~ at least he isnt that kind of guy that would gossip at ur back talk rot about U and thinkin that everythin is untold to the victim.... He protects friends~ try to be close to them~ try to create bonds between them~ althought he may have attitude problem but at least... at the very very least, he put in the very effort to try and I think that is veri admirable. He may be a big idiot who don know how to talk and choose the words he use, but if U really sit down and think, all those things that he said are quite true to some of us~ it's just that we guys dosent wan those critism to come out from his mouth. (unholy aura) i must say but pls! we must try to giv him a chance to get near to us or nothin will ever change and without changes, no one is gonna get happier then the other if this kind of things continues...

Are u guys really so happy that someone ur race, ur type, ur classmate is bein push to the corner and left out all alone? wat if u are in his shoes? wat will u do? can u handle that kind of stress or dislike everyone is givin him? are u sure u can pretend that nothin had happen and continue to move on lyk normal? can u really stay in a group of frens knowin that alot dislike him? Is this wat we are suppose to giv him? Is he given a chance to change? Can he really be so hateful that we must treat him lyk that? well ask urself about it... but one things that is for sure! he really feel sucky inside and i got that kind of feelin when one of my past best friend left me.... it really hurts and sucks!

Does jumpin down and die solve everythin? are u sure u are dead without regrets? pls don tell me that u wan to die or wat! yea! ppl may treat u that way, ppl may not lyk ur presence, ppl may not lyk u at all! but have u ever think of it. Y the hell will they think of that? y the hell would they ever do that? where does the problem lies on? have u ever really thought of those things and see wat u can do to make things better? do u really wan to know where ur problem lies? do u really wan to change it? yea! did those thing ever come across ur mind? and btw! friendship is not as easy as i playin xbox, it is impossible to get everyone to lyk u or agree to u! but all u really nid is that one or two "true" friends that will never leave u behind no matter wat will happen to them.... that is wat i call friendship! rather then havin a large number of friends where i cannt turst ani of them at all! i rather have one who can understand how i feel and will always be there when needed. YEA! i do know for myself who are my "true" friends and who are wolfs and foxes behind a sheep clothin! Im not a dumbass that doesnt know wat is goin on... I know who hates me and are puttin a mask in front of me! i know who bad mouth me! i know who badstab me! but wat is the point even if i point them out and cut all ties wif them? wat i nid is guys that will really stand by my side and be wif me no matter how shit the situation maybe! i think u should do that do! maybe that is the best thing u should try to do!

To me Friendship is not about comin together and makin as much friends as possible because of common topics and games! but friendship is a really indepth learnin of a person's personality and the willingness level of u to offer ur help if ever the person needs it! it is not about the number of friends u had make because of anithin u had in common but the amount of "sister or brother" u had made because of the way u treat them and the way they treat u! tapped within ur heart to find the friends who really care about u! and yet try to change the way others think about u by showin changes! only then will u be likeable~ as disney-winne the pooh. changes speaks the loudest! no point beon gloomy! be happy most importantly!


*Ps! if i mentioned anithin that will make ani of u unhappy. i apologise if i did mentioned anithing unfavorable. plus all these postin are my own views! u may not have to agree wif me. but pls no matter wat giv those who are wrong a second chance! that will really help them alots...
don ask me y i post this shit! cos i got nth to post obivously! haha! nites!

-by jz =D

movin on!

Everythin will and had come to an end! there is no point in tryin so hard to saviour it or change it... I've come to a situation where tears don change a thing and all of the tryin are pointless also meaninless in my point of view. No matter how hard i called out for ur name, how hard i wan u by my side, how hard i wan to hold u or how hard i cried things just don get better for me.

I don have regrets, i don have tears, i don have the abilitly to make u mine.... but i have sweet memories that will forever stay wif me until the very last of my breath.I once heard of this sayin, don complain if u don get it, but be contended cos u once had it, very true indeed. Those smile that u gave me, those warmth gentle looks, those laughter that u cried out when u are wif me, those fun we had when we are in our own world, I will never ever forget it.

When i know u chose to be free, don wan to be tied down to me anymore, iFelt despair not knowin wat else i can do becos everythin seems too late... I love u more then money,want u more then ani desires and wishes to be wif u more then anyone u know~i don wanna stop u becos when i think about it... i just want u to be happy.thats all.

I knew this day will come sooner or later... someday, sometime, someway... U are goin to do that to me! i lyk u! i really lyk u alot~ so do moved on! do watever u wan, keep runnin and don look back if that is all u wan. blesses from the angels, love from the god and wishin from me will make u strong.... no matter wat u become, pls rmb that i love u from the bottom of my heart. movin on even it means that hit me the hardest....

i have no regrets,
no tears
no feelin of despair,
but~
happiness, laughter and love
becos that is wat u really wan...
BE free. be wateva u wan.
however u wan.
most importantly be happy~ dearest ...........

seriously! i don quite get wat some girls and woman are thinkin! U help them also hate u! U help them also sack U! U help them also scold U! just wat the heck are these opposite sex thinkin~ Im helpon u to find wat u lost and brood about~ i try so hard just because i wan to see U bein happy, see u smile once again without worry! let u be the happiest person on earth..... even thou all that might be just for a split second! i tried all my might~ squeeze all my brain juice and almost all my resources to exchange for ur happiness.... instead of a thanks or anithin~ U told me I HATE U! and don talk to me~ so wat is so wrong for doin that? i didnt hurt him! didnt hurt u! just wanted to help u recover ur lost feelin.... This few days, when i msg u and u stop returnin my msg! i was greatly sadden and lost! just wat is it that I've done that u must hate me so much? I totally don know wat is there so much to be angry about!!! I don know wat else to say..... dam disappointed!

that mad woman out there! WTH! funfair ar! u nid us that treat us good! don nid us then send us home! when i think about u i dam angry! angry until wan to pian u! tell us wat cut course! then go hired two ppl to sub us! U think we so dumb until cannt do plus and minus ar? u really think we so dumb let u scam until we don know~ kao! u really sucks! really really sucks! U lyk that treat ur collegues! Im not lyin~ one day u will get all this back~ wan to sack then giv proper reason la! say wat cut cost! so fake! so ass! so chicken ass! U are a nig evil ass! just wat the hell are u thinkin! shit ur thinkin! shit ur actions! shit ur plannin! u suck to the core of the earth! NB!

help u house work u scold! don help u house work u also scold! wateva i do u will scold! dam pek chek~ ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Y all of u make me so stress! wakao! really tired and sad, speechless wif some of u! hiax! do u know ur words are more influencial then teacher? then parents? then god? but Y are u always the one who will make me upset not them? Y is it that makin someone happy seem so hard even it means throwin in almost everythin? Y is it U will still get shit thing after U threw in everythin? Y is it when u make and effort she still scold? PUZZLED and confuse! ._____. moody! hiaz

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions. Say you're guessing if you don't know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your 21 friends to do the same.


1. jem
2.marcus
3.weiren
4.jaiver
5.jinghan
6.edwin
7.yingsiew
8.jermaine
9.dawn
10.eric
11.lionel
12.kovit
13.chelsea
14.junjie
15.yuwen
16.carol
17.CT
18.jovey
19.zhiyun
20.weijie
21.chongrong


PLS! ignore about the blog shit!

-how did you meet 7 ?
in school(yingsiew)

-What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
worry about who to change shift wif(yuwen)

-What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
bless thire GAY life a peaceful one (jem & weijie)

-Have you ever seen 17 cry?
yes!(CT)

-Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
obviously! no!(jaiver & carol)

-Do you want to be 13's friend forever?
Of cos! depends! eh! should be(chelsea)

-Do you think 11 is attractive?
in a particular way! yes(lionel)

-What's 5's favorite color?
white or black(jinghan)

-When was the last time you talked to 9?
last friday?(dawn)

-What language does 8 speak?
eng,chinese, act cute language!haha! jkjk(jermaine)


-Who is 13 going out with?
she denys! but i think is some hunks(chelsea)

-What grade is 16 in?
uni(carol)

-Would you ever date 17?
will! the day when i think that life is no more fun(CT)

-Where does 18 live?
tampines(jovey)

-What is the best thing about 4?
eh!slow lor!(jaiver)

-What would you like to tell 10 right now?
so long liao! u still so gay(eric)

-What is the best thing about 20?
wan suan me but suan lose me lor(weijie)

-Have you ever kissed 2?
yep!(marcus)

-What's the best memory you have of 5?
eat wang zai! and he pay for it(jinghan)

-When's the next time you're going to see 4?
not sure(jaiver)

-How is 7 different from 6?
boy and girl(yingsiew & edwin)

-Is 2 pretty?
handsome to be correct(marcus)

-What was your first impression of 15
smart girl(yuwen)

-How did you meet 3?
school(weiren)

-Is 15 your best friend?
all of them is my best frens(yuwen)

-Do you hate 12?
no(kovit)

-Have you seen 18 in the last month?
yea(jovey)

-When was the last time you saw 16?
today(carol)

-Have you been to 5's house?
yea(jinghan)

-When's the next time you'l see 10?
next gym(eric)

-Are you close to 11?
no(lionel)

-Have you been to the movies with 4?
yes(jaiver)

-Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
no(jermaine)

-Would you hug 19?
no(zhiyun)

-When have you lied to 3?
none(weiren)

-Is 11 good at socializing?
yes(lionel)

-Do you know a secret about 8?
yes(jermaine)

-Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
friends(kovit & jovey)

-What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?
free pooh(dawn)

-What's the worst thing about 6?
nth(edwin)

-Have you ever had a crush on 12?
no(kovit)

-How long have you known 2?
very long(marcus)

-Have you ever been in a fight with 13?
no(chelsea)

-Does 11 have a bf/gf?
not sure(lionel)

-Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
in the ass yes(jem)

-Has 21 met your mother?
no(chongrong)

-How did you meet 11?
school(lionel)

-Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
forget(weiren)

-Do you live close to 7?
no(yingsiew)

-What is 8's favorite food?
rojak?(jermaine)

-What kind of car does 1 have?
lol! too much cars(jem)

-Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
got(jermaine)

-if you gave 14 $100, what would he/she spend it on?
cigar(jun jie)



im so happy today

bo title

Sometimes! i hope that god could change me into a small hut... a really really small one,so small until it onli hav 2 small window,1 small door,1 small room,1 small kitchen and 1 small toilet! So that i could shelter u from the fiercest storm... protect U from the dangerous wildlife.... and make u as comfortable and carefree as u are supposed to be...... Haha! I hate to see u gettin hurt and cryin ur soul out over anithin~ maybe that is the reason for me to wan to be a hut! I know i cannt provide U wif the kind of luxury u have when u are in a bigger hut or even mansion but i just wish that u will drop by this small hut of mine once in awhile! run here to sob when U are sad! run here to tell the walls U are extremely proud of somethin or another! run here when u are afraid! run here to take shelter when u know u have nothing to rely on!
Don ask me y i wan to do that! my girl! for u already know the answer! I know i am not that guy which will stay in ur bedroom and watch u sleep in a stormy nite but I cannt stop myself to be that guy who will wait quietly under the rain hopin that everythin will be fine! I know i will nvr be the guy who will share the same porcorn or drinks wif u durin a movie and i know that i will nvr ever be that one to hold ur hand and warmth it in the harshest storm~ but somehow I just refuse to belive it! haha!YEA! many said I am stupid! many said I am sturbborn~ but as long as u are happy! I am fine wif it!
I don dare to ask much from god! but i wish that he will giv u his blessin and make u sucessful in all u do! i think that will onli be my request to the god or ani diety~ WITH or without me! be happy =D that is all i ask for before i enter a new chapter of my life!


Some said love it is a river....
that drown the tendery~
Some said love it is it is a razor....
that rip ur soul to bled~
Some said love it is a hunger.....
and endless ppl sink in it~

I said love....
It is a flower....
That U is all it see!

It is that heart that is afraid of breakin...
the dreamt afraid of wakin.....
the one who is afraid of leavin....
and the song who is afraid of stoppin...

I think love is bein happy when~
U are standin there smilin happily like a....
fool .____.!

SMSED! wendy! she was doin great! good to hear it! hope u will always feel that great everyday! JJ mai quit! I don wan to be the sole boy there at popular la! dam gay leh! so strange la!later ppl mistaken me as auntie also how? don quit oky?

*chalet on 5-7 apr! interested parties asked marc for information! all invited!!! c(*@*)2 don be a loser! muz come hor!